…..why.. do I get relief when I agree with not loving him…. 😞

I wanna know how did you feel before you got better… I just feel like exhausted.. I keep saying I don’t love him to test myself for a reaction… I am worried I don’t want him anymore…

What does that mean!?!?!?

I think he means that some thoughts are what you really think; not everyone is ocd related. And sometimes truth Is hard to accept.. But it is easy to confuse real toughts with rocd toughts so good luck!

@eoid 😢😢😢 no….no…. No!!! 😭 Nonononono!!! Nononononononononono!!! 😖😖 NoNononononononono!!!!

@eoid I don’t want it to be true!!! No!!!!

Let things be the way they are if he meant to be stay in your life he will. Don't think too much and even if you want to Don't resist your thoughts. :)

@vinay But what am I going to do! 😢 I’ve been obsessing for 2 years! It didn’t feel like this before! It’s like my symptoms are gone!! 😭😭😭 I don’t want this to be true! I had clarity moments with him this month! Why am I agreeing to this!! 😖 I am just at the point I wanna die! I’ve been crying my eyes out rereading what you both said! For an hour! 😖 I was so scared of this happening when my ROCD started! I was so scared I was gonna find out the truth! I’ve been so stressed out with everything in life…

I’ve been depressed all day… i don’t have intrusive thoughts anymore…. 😭

@7710 ❤️ Yes my boyfriend is also very depressed due to all stress of ocd so some days feel like there’s no spark

@SamanthaDan It’s been non stop with random moments of clarity..

@7710 ❤️ Exactly what SamanthaDan said. All that stress takes a toll. With therapy, you’ll get better help. You have to remember that OCD is the what If disorder.

I started to disassociate and experience depersonalization…. It was like I didn’t even know him anymore. But my therapist has really helped me

It will feel like that as he’s a negative things to you right as he’s the person u get ocd about so you’re going to feel stressed towards him it’s not his fault nor urs. Are you getting therapy ? It helped my relationship!! and taking apex cbd oil twice a day 2 drops works wonders !! if you’re depressed u won’t feel love or enjoyment toward things get the help you need

@SamanthaDan Never got therapy… it doesn’t feel right. It’s like I am in denial.. when I think about how I was with him before everything got bad.. I was so loving sure I had moments of doubting but never got this bad… when I think about breaking up with him I get sad… I still test myself saying I don’t love him… I just wanna love him like before again…

@7710 ❤️ Have u been digniosed with ocd?

@7710 ❤️ And that’s understandable when u have an illness that is based on doubt it’s going to get stressful and confusing without the right help the stress will take away the spark getting help was the best thing we ever did now we r better then ever

@SamanthaDan No… but everyone around me can see my ocd tendencies more than I can..

@7710 ❤️ Therapy is life changing i would highly recommend , what other sort of intrusive thoughts do you get if u don’t mind me asking?

@SamanthaDan Therapy helped very much! Definitely recommend it for op

@SamanthaDan That’s the thing… I had intrusive thoughts… now it like all of my symptoms are gone… I wanna go back and deal with anxiety than deal with this…

@7710 ❤️ I highly recommend trying cbd oil type into Google apex cbd oil 150mg one my boyfriend cpuodnt even sit in a cafe or go get a hair cut until he used this oil read online about it it works wonders

@SamanthaDan But what do I do about not having symptoms anymore… that I am believing I don’t love him anymore…. 😞

@7710 ❤️ Ocd thoughts are typically what you fear the thought of you not loving him anymore does it make you anxious what do you do to make urself feel better do you confess that to him ?

@SamanthaDan I feel better when he just gives me hugs but even that doesn’t work… I am gonna lose him…. 😞 I never confessed to him to make myself feel better.. I’ve always told myself I didn’t love him and when I did it would give me relief but I would start freaking out badly… I just want to love him like before again… that’s all I want…. He has the cutest belly and I use to rub my face against it to show affection… 🥺 We have some issues we as a couple need to work on.. but right now my emotional connection isn’t there which is fueling it even more

@7710 ❤️ Do things that you two used to do , date nights are essential. love is a funny ol thing. You’re not supposed to feel in love with your partner all the time I go does without feeling a connection due to all the stress to do with ocd