tw racism ocd
help help help i'm so scared. i've had this memory from when i was suffering from strong racism OCD i went in old servers on discord and looked up the n word to see if i had everr said it.. i don't know if it's a false memory but i'm genuinely so scared because if i wrote it that means i'm racist even if i was just looking for traces of me saying it.. help i'm so scared i don't know what to do...
It happens to me everyday at my job. I know I'm a very good person and im kind to everyone but my OCD is so bad sometimes. I work in a very diverse environment..It's like constant fear of accidentally screaming a slur.