- Username
- allieandscrup
- Date posted
- 760d ago
- Religion & Spirituality OCD
Christianity and CW: death
My ocd usually focuses on my faith. It’s either I’m not a real Christian, my faith isn’t sincere, I don’t really believe, or it’s obsessive doubt about if what I believe in is the truth. Basically fear that maybe my faith is misplaced, Christianity isn’t true, etc. Of course the second one (doubting what I believe in) only makes the first one worst (I must be a fake Christian). I’ve also been having a lot of obsessive thoughts about dying and it seems to be on my mind constantly. Like just constant hyper-awareness that I and everyone will die. (Sorry, I Know that’s a downer.) This is kinda new for me and I don’t know how to go about dealing with it. I think it’s likely related to the obsessive doubt in Christianity, because obviously that makes the thought of death scarier. I feel like other Christians will think I’m a very bad Christian for having obsessive doubt that the Bible and Christianity are true. I know people don’t really understand that it’s part of OCD, because it looks like I just don’t have any faith. My compulsions for this basically look like ruminating and researching if the Bible can be trusted or if it’s accurate. And it’s rational, because obviously I want to believe in what is true. And I’m so obsessed with making sure what I believe in is really true. So yeah, any thoughts or advice would be nice. Thanks guys