body/face dysmorphia and OCD

I constantly have an evil/adulterous/egocentric habit of watching pornography. In the perspective of a man, I might get pleasure but the real truth behind all that sweating and hand jerk offs, there is an artist, maybe not an artust, but its a 12 year old trying to fix faces, evaluating what is masculine or femenine ... Sometimes I wonder... is the subject a friend/prey/neighboor/ or is it me projecting my own face insecurities. When we are young , when we want to dance or have that spotlight we look into the mirrors. Ill be honest, Im not a narcisus, I am actually with these fears I have focused on the person I am looking. Its more of a fear related to a partner. To calm you down my friend... i used to have a fear of chicken grease. I was able to eliminate it. I still have BDD. What separates the veil behind desire/independence and surgical hospital photoshop? To add more reguardibg ... would you have a little frog jumping from one side of the body to the other? Is it an eartworm you are afraid of? I have to be polite, the begining is terryfying but it might improve. For the current moment Mr or Mrs 1988, try glutamate. This is something between you and I, doesnt include other OCD sufferers.