Im trying to ignore it, im trying to just let it pass, im trying to accept uncertainty but its not working. It helped a little and i was ok for a few days but now my ocd is right back to where it was and now its maybe worse. Idk if i can do this anymore man. These thoughts are too horrific and despicable and i just want them out of my head but i just dont know how.
When you start to stand up to ocd, it basically throws a tantrum. It gets louder, meaner, more frequent. But if you keep resisting compulsions, it will eventually tire itself out and lose intensity. You stood up to ocd; it challenged you; you backed down. You were on the right track. Try again!
Thank you. I’ll definitely keep trying
I’m going through the same thing right now. Accept each day may be different from the last and take each day by day, just be aware of that feeling in your body and focus on that feeling. How big is it? Does it have a color? (These are tips from my therapist) know you aren’t alone. I’m in the same boat and it’s hArd todo these things in the moment of ocd panic
I have Pure OCD myself.
There's no rational response to what you're going through. All I can do is share my story with you and hope it helps. I had crippling scrupulosity for several years of my life. It would be better for hours in a day and then become excruciating, sometimes it would even get better for days in a week but it would still return to whatever hellish place it had been before. That brutal cycle went on for years, and I didn't know anything but despair and pain on a daily basis. Even when I wasn't actively tortured by whatever obsession or thought I was struggling with, I was desperately afraid because I knew that it was just a matter of time before it returned. I'm sure you understand all of that all too well. But that has changed for me. I have now, for more years than I suffered from extreme OCD, and am living a functional, fulfilling, and absolutely wonderful life. I'm not a professional in this sphere, I can't give you advice on how to solve it, but know that there can be an end. When I was in the depths of OCD I didn't believe that was possible, and I don't even expect you to entirely believe it right now. But if you can, hold on to that idea, the idea that you will get through this and that the world on the other side of OCD is indescribably beautiful. Don't give up man. Get through the days and hours and minutes, and don't give up hope. Whatever you do, don't give up. You have a life ahead of you which could contain more than you or anyone else can imagine.
Thank you, this really means a lot. Its so tough and idk how im gonna fet through this but i will keep trying.
This might contain triggering content, but I'm also wondering if others have dealt with this similar thought, and if so, how to deal with it? Overall, I've been doing so well these past few days. I'm able to eat again, which I hadn't been able to do because of how much anxiety I'd been experiencing. I'm spending time around loved ones and not just rotting in my room, and I've been able to wake up without immediately being bombarded by intrusive thoughts. When things first got really bad, I'd wake my mom up every night for reassurance, but I haven't done that in a while either. I'm really proud of myself, but there's still this nagging thought in my mind... While looking through others posts on here, hoping to find advice that'd fit my situation, I ended up making things worse. Someone mentioned how they had a fear that they'd purposely search for illegal content (related to POCD). I panicked, and "what ifs" flooded my thoughts. "What if the intrusive thoughts affect who I am as a person, and I do that?" I'm terrified that I'll search for those things, which I know means I wouldn't do it. But then, another person on here said they'd actually looked for those things, and that freaked me out even more. Does that mean it's possible for that to happen to me? I don't want to do that, but I keep having intrusive thoughts surrounding it. I've been doing so well these past few days. I'm just... stuck. I don't know what to do. I've spoken with other people who have the same fears, but how do I manage this? It's not something I've even thought about before seeing those posts. I've been practicing accepting the uncertainty, but I'm really struggling with this one. I hate this. This morning, I woke up, and the intrusive thoughts were back. It's just disheartening.
Like I'm not even scared I feel numb and ever since that night I've completely went down hill Idk what to do the feeling i felt this time genuily felt like i liked it and i didnt even have anxiety at that moment and now I'm panicking I really hope this is still OCD like I'm sorry if I'm still asking for reassurance but im really worried like it felt good in that moment I don't understand what's going on like I hope it was a false feeling and not something real.....like this has happened before but Idk 😭😭😭😭 I really don't know what to I don't want to turn into a p word I don't this I've been sleeping all day I still do compulsions a little to get rid of the thoughts but I've been getting sexual thoughts too and I don't want them but I feel like I do I don't understand I though I was getting better but I guess every time I get better everything gets worse..
Lately my OCD has been very horrible, it’s been more convincing than ever to the point where I’m genuinely convinced that I like this stuff, when I get a thought, I’ll hear my intrusive thoughts go “oooh, I like that, I’d do that.” and I just don’t freak out nor feel bad, I just feel like I like it even more, and feel like I would do/act on it and like it, and the feeling is strong and it lingers forever? It genuinely feels like I do, and I’m just lying now, i can’t tell if I make these thoughts worse or anything All I remember mostly just being like confused sometimes when these thoughts happen, but since I’m getting strong emotions that I like it, my brain says that means I did and I’m worried about that being true because I don’t understand nor know It’s like I am resisting to like this stuff now, it’s even tougher now than it was before
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