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"Pure" OCD

SydneyRJ

Date posted: 3y

Absolutely yes I can relate. I struggled with harmful thoughts with my sisters about two years ago and it ended up putting me in the hospital because I broke down. I didn’t want to be with my family because I was ashamed, but little by little, I did it anyway. I would spent time with them even thought I didn’t want to and felt like an imposter. But I reached out for help and it came. It did not happen over night and I still struggle with other ocd stuff but eventually I was able to face my thoughts and fears. I’m not cured because those thoughts still happen but they don’t have the same power anymore. Reach out for help and keep holding on.

Anonymous

Date posted: 3y

Yes I can relate . I too have been there. It hasn't been too long ago, I too became a hermit. Didn't go anywhere, see anybody. I just stayed home. It's been a couple of months, thanks to my therapist, Georgiana. I'm now going to the store. I've seen my mom for the first time in 2 years, and back at church. I haven't trusted myself for almost a year. But that's changed somewhat now. It's time for you to take some time to just sit with you. .Its not easy to forgive yourself. But it's a start. Don't beat up on yourself, please. It doesn't do any good.Take some time for you and your thoughts. Take a shower, sit outside and smell the fresh air, get comfy. Tomorrow is another day and things always look better the next day. Have a pleasant evening.

Samwise33

Date posted: 3y

I completely understand! I went through the same thing with my mom, although my intrusive thoughts are a bit different now but still, sufferable. I was on a vacation on Hawaii and when one random night, I started having having thoughts of hurting my mom. I got so scared I couldn’t sleep for a few nights without having to rely on Benadryl. One night, those thoughts bothered me so much I went crazy and almost ran out of the bathroom because I was hiding in there. Hocd really scared me. I couldn’t believe I had such thoughts. My mom helped me go to sleep for the first two nights I went through by talking to me and me telling her a story.

Anonymous

Date posted: 3y

Thank you Lord for great mom's, who understand! Thank you for sharing.

moon0270

Date posted: 25w

Does anyone else experience this

In the past I used to isolate myself when I was feeling bad or when my mental health became poor. now I feel like I don't want to be alone because I'm scared that when I'm alone, something bad will happen or i'll lose control and do something bad. And I feel like when I'm around someone e.g. my mom, it's easier to just let the thoughts go because at least there's someone there to verify that I haven't done anything bad.

Holl1

Date posted: 20w

OCD

I’ve tried living in the uncertainty today & kept myself busy but I can’t shake this feeling that I’m about to lose control & act on my thoughts. I keep feeling like I need to check in to see how I feel & keep my self safe & when I’m near my trigger it feels like I’m being pulled into doing it & feels like I want to but I’m not using compulsions. My thoughts feel like my own & feeling like I’ll be like this forever. Can someone relate or give advice 😩

Harm OCD

Anonymous

Date posted: 11w

I feel like it was never OCD, or it was but now it feels different.

There are moments when something takes over me, like I have to fight myself (literally restrain myself) from acting on my thoughts, like causing harm to my parents or brother. I get these feelings that feel so real, like they are genuinely my own. There are moments when I feel like I like them, and it makes me question whether this is truly OCD or if it's me. Then I wonder whether this is me lying to myself, because I feel the urge to smile at the thought, or feel like I have some pleasure. I check whether I like them, and then I feel like I do, so I stop immediately. I feel like my old self is gone, and I've become this person, and that it was never OCD. Right now, as I type this, I feel like I'm lying to myself. There are moments when I feel like my brain splits, as if this is my new personality. Or there are moments when I feel like it might feel liberating or freeing if I do it. I genuinely feel like this is not OCD. There are moments when I stop the thought, and I feel like it's out of principle, as if I don't truly want to stop at that thought. I truly can't picture this to be my life now. I never had these thoughts in my life until two and a half months ago. It truly makes me question whether it was OCD. I don't get why. I used to view my family as my world, and now my mind is making me scared and feel like my room is my only safe place from them, from me.

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