God

Answer is no. Ocd likes to create distortions of God. For example, thinking God is controlling everything you buy. God gave us free will and already knows what you will do before you think about it. He predestined and knows the future. Think about it, like the previous example, how will buying this or doing that ruin the will of God? It can't. God does not want you in constant anxiety or fear. 2 Timothy 1:7 ESV [7] for God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self-control. The word of God is a good place to see if it's really God's will. You will know once you read the Bible. God loves you and wants you to have peace. God bless.

Does anyone feel like God doesn’t care about your desires even tho I know he does I feel like I stop praying about them because I don’t want to make it an idol and he’s not just gonna give it to me. And I feel like I can’t accept the fact he loves me and is caring and I’m not understanding his character like I’m too hard on myself and just think he wants me to suffer. Why does my mind think this way. And when I’m not doing anything Christian related I feel better sometimes but that’s the devil because he wants us to be distracted but then I don’t want to feel stressed trying to read the Bible but don’t want to make Him a checklist

I know we are as close to God as we choose to be but it’s hard and I wish I was closer. I wish the Bible didn’t scare me and I wish I could just think clearly and differentiate between the Holy Spirit or my brain. How do we expect to spend eternity with God if we can’t even spend bare minimum time. I feel like I want blessings more than God but I want God cuz I know he’s the truth but then if he told me the truth I probs wouldn’t listen or think it’s the ocd