Deleted post.

I’ll do my best but forewarned, everyone’s OCD is different. The theme might be the same but their thoughts could be different. Let’s go one at a time.

Feel free to ask away ?

So I can kind of answer that! There have been plenty of times when I’ve just gone numb and had no idea what was real anymore. But my HOCD is more on analysis and over thinking. I haven’t had those types of thoughts. I’m sorry. But here’s my email if you have any other questions: jakesmith121987@gmail.com

Yeah sure no problem. Write me an email and I’ll respond. We all need each other in this when things go dark. I’ll be home in an hour and will be by a computer then.

While I'm not a clinical proffesional it sounds like your OCD may of taken on emotions. Causing you to ruminate on your sexual identity know. As pure - o plus feeling numb. I think you need to look into a few things. 1. I need to Target the inappropriate thoughts. 2. I need to look into hidden/ mental cumpolsions like analyzing/trying to figure out that ..... 3. Putting OCD a side if I'm feeling numb I think I need to look at other alternative. How is my appetite doing? |_ maybe Depression is Playing a role 2. Than do I need to see a physiciatrist? Ami I feeling muscle tension . Maybe I need sometimes like Emdr to Process the events - or re- regulate the Emotions. In my experience I tried Emdr but nothing worked better than a medication change. Am I thinking in all or nothing. And on and on ... Maybe see a professional