- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 3y
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I have question that too!! Why did the higher beings curse us with this disorder?! I see so many people living their best life … and I just want to be like that. Living my best life. I’m sure you feel the same way too. It’s funny how one little thing can send you downwards —— that’s what happened to me
@J6 I agree with you 100%. We don’t deserve to go through this. I bet you anything everyone in this app is a great human being that just wants to live a normal life. None of us are whatever our thoughts makes us believe, yet we have to battle these demons every single day. I also pray that we heal one day …. ❤️
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I hope so too! I just want to get better but not just me, all of us. We shouldn’t have to suffer!!!
@Justateenagerwithocd Yeah ocd has themes, as you have probably seen and not every theme affect just one individual. For instance, my theme is harm ocd and suicidal ocd where thoughts like that flood my mind from time to time where as some people suffer from perfectionist ocd or relationships ocd.
@Justateenagerwithocd Oh I totally understand that part. Yeah I always get paranoid about that stuff too. I am not sure if severe ocd can cause that because I know that for schizophrenia, there is a genetic component/ hereditary component
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It’s funny because I actually enjoy watching a lot of Kpop! But thank you for your words. I also hope you start feeling better. I truly hate ocd. It sucks. I hope all of us, everyone single one in this app, can one day beat this monster
I posted yesterday that I was feeling better than usual, now I’m not. I knew it could happen that I start to feel bad again. I’ve been feeling like this is the worst it’s been so far but that can’t be true because nothing has changed I’m always afraid of doing something bad, have done something bad, or are capable of doing something bad. I posted a TW on this post just in case. My main thing is I’m afraid of being a certain kind of bad person. I won’t mention it I know people will understand probably who I mean. I know it’s an OCD type, and I’ve been looking up different instances of people with this same subtype and sometimes I find someone in my same situation and I feel relief, for a moment at least. But then I think I might be different. I’m seeing my therapist Friday, and I’m always nervous talking to them because I want to not sound like I’m crazy. Sometimes I’m like you must’ve done something bad to feel this way or, you’re a bad person and should feel bad. There’s so much I wish I could do to help with this. I fall back into a spiral anytime I feel better because I feel like why would I feel good now if I wasn’t before. Sorry for the rant everyone. I just feel bad now and I’m worried I’ll never feel normal again. Hopefully someone else has felt or feels the same. I want to not feel like this, I wish I could go back to when I was young and undiagnosed to get the correct diagnosis early. I feel like my meds aren’t helping anymore which is concerning because like my anxiety should be gone right? Idk, and idk why I have felt really good recently but now after spiraling I’m back at it. Sometimes I’m worried it’s not ocd even though I have plenty of signs AND was officially diagnosed. Again sorry for the long post, just needed to air out how I felt
Just wanted to jump on here and express how I have felt lately. The past 5 to 6 months have been pretty excruciating. I conquered OCD 5 years ago and for some reason, it has slipped back and took over my life again. More so the depression that came along with it. Is there anyone else out there that has returned to rock bottom where they once fully climbed themselves out of?
I'm struggling with a lot of doubts today, but trying the best I can to keep on living my life 🥲 I'm on 150mg of Sertraline right now, and honestly, I'm feeling a lot better than before. Do I still get triggered? Yes! But I'm handling it easier. The only issue is, I feel like I'm obsessing over recovering? Not if I'm doing it "right," but more so getting to a point where I feel "perfect." That's not possible, I know. Even before OCD spiraled out of control, I struggled with other issues on a daily basis. But life felt simpler back then, and I didn't have this magical (and annoying) ability to remember every single bad thing that's ever happened to me or every single intrusive thought I've ever had in extreme detail 😭 Whenever I'm feeling okay, I can not help but think, "Remember how bad it was (insert time-frame)?" And then my mind zip zaps through every instance I've ever felt anxiety, like...? I don't even know if it's me doing this or if its OCD, but it frustrates me so, so much when it happens. Anyway, that's all for now... If anyone can relate, we're in this together 🤍 Hang in there!
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