i feel disgusting

i’m so scared that i might find my brother attractive. everytime i look at him i stare hard trying to see how i feel about him. i try to see if i find his face cute or if him shirtless is attractive. it sounds so bad. i keep staring and it sounds so bad but i think i’m like compulsively trying to see if i do find him cute or attractive. the staring doesn’t make me feel better it just makes me more confused and scared. i don’t know. just the other day i was able to look at my brother and not thinking any of the thoughts i have now. i’m so scared idk

"Pure" OCD

razberrie27

Date posted: 3y

you're not alone. that is definitely a compulsive behavior. i struggled with very similar things for a long time. i'm mostly recovered now, because i learned how to ignore my intrusive thoughts. identifying the thought is the first step, for example, the "what if"s. when i hear that phrase, i ignore what comes out next. it takes a LOT of practice but it's how you get over ocd. recovery IS possible. (and NOT LINEAR!!) 🧡🧡🧡

Shaodidi

Date posted: 21w

I’m confused

I keep wondering if I’m attracted to this kid I saw a week ago or not, it keeps happening, I can’t figure it out, what I hope is false attraction is feeling too real, I don’t wan to like the kid, I never wish to like kids, I genuinely feel like I’m just in doubt, I can’t figure it out, it feels weird, I don’t feel any guilt, shame, disgust, or panic, idk why but ik that I’m supposed to feel that, it makes me feel like I’m a real p. I barley get any negative emotion from those thoughts anymore, even when these thoughts started I didn’t feel shame or guilt, but I think I did feel worry and panic, I’m not sure anymore, I don’t remember.

quillgf

Date posted: 15w

incestuous intrusive thoughts 🫩

agh .. okay .. i’m so so embarrassed to post this, i’m literally crying .. but i need some help and advice. or maybe just a place to vent. i don’t know yet. so .. i was hanging out with three of my cousins today, and a few friends. one of my cousins was driving us around, and it was a pretty long drive, and we all just chatted, had fun, you know, normal teenager shit. but i couldn’t help but shift my focus onto certain things about my cousin driving — “wow, he’s going so fast, he’s so cool,” “i like the way his hands are gripping the wheel. wow his hands. hands hands hands” “his happy trail looks nice” (we went swimming) “i feel jealous of his girlfriend” and all sorts of things. i just feel. so awful. i don’t want these thoughts at all, and i feel just horrible. my ocd mixed with hypersexuality from trauma is just not helping at all, and i just want to get rid of these thoughts. i feel so disgusted with myself, and i’m scared that even though intrusive thoughts are normal, maybe mine are too far and i’m just “unfixable” or “broken.” any advice on what i could do? :( edit: i would like to add that we’re not even blood cousins, since we’re “related” through my step dad, which makes these thoughts worse and makes my head go, “oh, well, it’s okay!!” aghh. so frustrating :(

Idontknow

Date posted: 13w

18+

I was playing with my brother and I thought he was so cute because he’s little and at the same time it felt like I wanted to touch him inappropriately It’s weird because sometimes I get disgusted by the thought and then sometimes I feel like I would actually that

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