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- 3y
OCD after heavy drinking
This is embarrassing to admit or talk about, but I just need to get this off my chest after talking to my therapist about it. a few weeks ago I got really drunk at a bar by accident/peer pressure to drink (pretty out of character for me). I think I selfishly wanted to feel good because of the torture ocd puts me through daily. Anyways, I got pretty drunk, to the point where I blacked out for some periods of time. I vaguely recall hitting on somebody pretty openly and for a long period of time. I probably was a complete selfish idiot. To make things worse I have a wife and kid. I let my wife know out of shame about my mistake the next day and she forgave me, but the damage had already been done. My ocd is making me feel convinced that something bad happened like I hooked up with that person and I’ll have a child with them and ruin my marriage and it’ll be this awful spiral. I always tell myself, “surely, if something like that happened, you’d remember it”. But my ocd makes it feel so real and it makes me really paranoid. Thankfully I have a wife who understands my brain, but I feel very worried about it all the time recently. It’s been about 3 weeks since the incident, but my brain won’t calm down. Anybody have any experience with dealing with true event ocd after drinking? What did you do to help you through the storm?