TransOCD/GenderOCD Spiral

Hey I’ve been there. The best thing is to just accept yourself regardless of what you are! That’s embracing the uncertainty. Then the truth will come out and you’ll see you don’t have to hate yourself or fight yourself. OCD is rooted in fear so if you can calm down the fear and it was OCD, it’ll go away. If it wasn’t OCD, I promise it’s better to know than to fight yourself forever. Just be safe and take care of yourself during this time because I know it can get dark. There’s always going to be a better day ahead - I promise.

Thats crazy triggering lol.. "the truth will come out" are you kidding me ? Thats not good to say to anyone with ocd.

@Sp1999 I completely get it. But that’s what ERP is all about! We’re all strong enough to sit in the fear and uncertainty.

@Sp1999 And if that piece triggers you, no need to sit with it yet. It means it’s probably a higher number for your exposures. Start small and then eventually you’ll get there :)

@Danielle Im stuck on soocd. Aint no way im living being anything other than straight.

@Danielle If thats what erp is about then count me out , ill cancel my appointment right now

@Sp1999 Definitely don’t cancel your appointment- you’ll see it gets better. If you don’t want to live any other way than being straight, you don’t have to! It’s about reducing the panic and pain so you can just be happy living your life. But it definitely works best in baby steps (at least it did for me) so don’t feel like you should sit with your 10/10 most triggering things right away. Go easy on yourself with it and don’t try to figure everything out all at once. It’s a marathon, not a sprint.

@Danielle I dont wanna be bi or gay . This erp stuff sounds fishy....

@Sp1999 Don’t worry - ERP can’t make you bi or gay at all. You have OCD and it’s really eating at you. I think you’re going to really enjoy working with your therapist. Give it some time - you’ve got this :)

@Danielle Im scared amd angry all the time💔... i hope you are right because suicide is on my mind alot lately also... i just want to get back to me

@Sp1999 Sadly I’ve been there too, I’m really sorry to hear you’re in that place. I know it can become tunnel vision where you just don’t see another option, but that couldn’t be further from the truth. There is always hope. I don’t know you personally but I’ve seen first hand there is ALWAYS something to live for even if you can’t see it yet. Therapy is going to really help. Just give it some time.

@Sp1999 I’m putting this away for the night but just always remember you’re one of so many people in the community on here. You’re not alone. You got this, hang in there :)

@Danielle That means alot, im tearing up right now, goodnight ! :')

@Sp1999 I’m really glad I could help:) Sorry about the trigger in the beginning. One day you’ll look back and be so happy because stuff like that won’t even bother you anymore. Have a good night and don’t let the ocd get you down!

@Danielle Im scared its true 💔😪

It does get better, I promise. There are good days and bad days. Don't lose hope.