dreeeeee
- Date posted
- 3y
I HAVE HARM OCD. HELP ME!
I see myself smiling and killed all of my family members. So scared right now! I also feel that I want to do it even I really don't want. You know what I mean? Huhu please help me.
Anonymous111Anonymous111
- Date posted
- 3y
I know what you are dealing with. I have delt with this. It was not easy to get over or to deal with very scary feeling. Maybe get with a therapist about doing some erp. This and sitting with it eventually helped me. It was not a easy process and I still have times where it tries to start up again but now I have the tools I need to overcome it.
kctgkctg
- Date posted
- 3y
Did you get help here on NOCD?
dreeeeeedreeeeee
- Date posted
- 3y
I don't know if we have available OCD therapist here in the Philippines. Also, I don't have enough money for that 😭. I just want to make feel better, I just want to feel normal again, I really miss my life, I really miss my old life, the old me. I really really miss myself! 😭
Anonymous111Anonymous111
- Date posted
- 3y
@kctg No I actually looked up some free help information and how to do erp and things like that. I did use this app under the tools and self guided erp thing they have.
dreeeeeedreeeeee
- Date posted
- 3y
@Amber92 I will do this bro. Hope it will help. Thank you so much!
dreeeeeedreeeeee
- Date posted
- 3y
@Amber92 Btw, does it helps?
Anonymous111Anonymous111
- Date posted
- 3y
@dreeeeee It helped me.
kctgkctg
- Date posted
- 3y
Yes this is my theme as well. Some days it feels like I want to do it, some it feels like I’m gonna lose my mind and do it, and sometimes it feels like my body is gonna move and do it even to my brain don’t want to. I actually don’t know how to get through it. I’m so anxious hanging out with them but I guess that it’s good exposure. And I feel so guilty towards them because they do everything to make me feel better but I just keep having horrible scaring disgusting thoughts about them. I honestly can’t live like this for longer
dreeeeeedreeeeee
- Date posted
- 3y
I feel so guilty. My mom loves me so much. She does everything for me, she doesn't deserve that she's one in my thoughts 😭, actually they are sleeping right now and I am struggling with my thoughts so bad.
kctgkctg
- Date posted
- 3y
@NOCDandre07 I know exactly what you mean. I guess we just have to hold on and wait for better times 🥺
dreeeeeedreeeeee
- Date posted
- 3y
@kctg I hate this so much huhu. How long have been suffering from this harm OCD?
dreeeeeedreeeeee
- Date posted
- 3y
@kctg I mean, how long have you been suffering..
kctgkctg
- Date posted
- 3y
Every now and then in my life, and some years of freedom in between but I feel like this time is the worst one I’ve gone through because of other draining things in my life. And this one has been “active” for like 6-7 months but right now is the worst. You?
dreeeeeedreeeeee
- Date posted
- 3y
So you mean, you have this harm OCD since you're a child?
dreeeeeedreeeeee
- Date posted
- 3y
I have this harm OCD last year I guess. First, I just suddenly feel that I wanted to shout or scream and I was surprised with that feels. I feel like I what if I cannot control myself and if I do scream or shout without any reasons. Until it came to the point that I suddenly feel that I'm scared coz my body and my mind wanted to kick my young brother without any reasons and that's the time that I got worried about myself. I searched a lot on google and I found out that it is not normal and yes, searching really triggers me and came out to this worst theme. I guess, my harm OCD started last year of July.
kctgkctg
- Date posted
- 3y
Not really since i was a Child but ive Had other forms of ocd since I was little. I’m so sorry to hear that I really know how struggling it is to deal with such thoughts. It makes you feel like the worst person on the planet and like you are just hiding your true self behind a kind face. :(
dreeeeeedreeeeee
- Date posted
- 3y
And maybe the worst is this harm OCD? Coz ghaaaad, having those thoughts with your love ones are really bad. They don't deserved that and I really hate the feeling, I will never enjoy life while having this harm OCD. How I wish that there is just a med or tablet to take then it will just go away and live normal again. 🥺
kctgkctg
- Date posted
- 3y
@dreeeeee I really feel you. I’ve had health concern ocd as well but it wasn’t nearly as hard as harm ocd is for me. I’ve had the same thought that I wish it was just a pill you could take and everything will disappear. But I know that one day you will wake up and everything will feel a little bit easier and one day these thoughts won’t concern you anymore because you’ve learned that thoughts are nothing more but just meaningless thoughts! If you have some kind of activity to do (like walk, games, paint) then try to do something like that when you feel bad. Do you also feel like it’s worse when you are at home/going home?
dreeeeeedreeeeee
- Date posted
- 3y
@kctg Yes! It's worse specially when my day offs at work, coz you know, I have more time with my family at home, more thoughts so the more I suffer 🥺 like what is happening right, it's my day off and everyone here are sleeping, and I am the only who is awake coz morning time is my sleep time. I just want to go out, to separate my self from them but I cannot coz I love my fam and I will miss them if I'll separate my self. Ghaddd, I am so desparate to heal. I want to enjoy my life 😭 I really want to enjoy with my family and friends. I love my life before not until it happened these thoughts, not until this harm OCD came to my life 😭
kctgkctg
- Date posted
- 3y
@dreeeeee I know, it’s good to know that your are not alone when you feel that you are the only one in this world with these type of thoughts :(:)
dreeeeeedreeeeee
- Date posted
- 3y
@kctg Thank you so much. Actually, I feel better when I talked to you here. Thank you so much coz it really helps when someone is listens to you. 🥹
kctgkctg
- Date posted
- 3y
@dreeeeee Glad to hear that, you can write here anytime you want and maybe we can chat a little to help each other
dreeeeeedreeeeee
- Date posted
- 3y
@kctg How to message you? 🥺
kctgkctg
- Date posted
- 3y
@dreeeeee You can’t message on this app but I just meant in this comment section
dreeeeeedreeeeee
- Date posted
- 3y
@kctg Hi! How are you? I'm suffering right now, I feel like want to do it again, like I want to kill my family but I'm scared 😭 and I feel like I am a psychopath. Please help me!!!!
dreeeeeedreeeeee
- Date posted
- 3y
@kctg I'm going crazy!!!
kctgkctg
- Date posted
- 3y
@dreeeeee How are you now?
kctgkctg
- Date posted
- 3y
@dreeeeee Sorry I didn’t answer so quick I haven’t been active here the past few days .. but I got so triggered by a TikTok yesterday and I feel like I am crazy too
dreeeeeedreeeeee
- Date posted
- 3y
@kctg What happened? Is there any way to message you or app?
kctgkctg
- Date posted
- 3y
@dreeeeee It was a TikTok about a schizophrenic killer , I have Kik if you have
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