- Username
- Brave through
- Date posted
- 722d ago
- Sexual Orientation OCD
Could use a little hocd help..ig
Is what i have and thinking actually ocd or just because its easier to accept it and cause of fear i call it ocd and not denial..?? Cause its easier to know its ocd….I haven’t been professionally diagnosed yet.. trying to find a therapist but what if he or she tells me something like you need to come out and you are not accepting and its making things just mad for you and it isn’t ocd?!? Then what i am calm while writing this so will i be calm when i hear this?! Was it always like this?!? All the past was a lie?!? How can something continue on for 3 years what if its scare and me not accepting and always have been living a lie and forcing my attraction to guys but noticing girls and thinking stuff that feels normal and no more intrusive?!? How is any of this ocd?!? I am going to be 20 and still single all this points somewhere?!? And i write all this knowing all this could be just my fake compulsions to tell its ocd and not denial?!? And why do i come constantly feel like i know its denial and i am just faking all this!!! Like such a strong i know?!! How am I supposed to fight that?!?