Do I… just don’t love him anymore and just don’t want to admit it?… am I just forcing myself to love him… it never feels that way… I never felt forced… why… why do I feel this… my friend and I were talking long about my relationship… she said that my relationship is good it’s just mine and my partners mental states getting in the way of truly being where we should. We don’t love ourselves.. my partner told me he hates himself… bc he feels like he himself being born was a mistake….. i just hate myself for other reasons… I know if we got help our relationship would become strong again.. Just yesterday it truly felt like I wanted to end it bc I got overwhelmed with anxiety

I have faith that things can be okay. I do not know you but I believe things can work out. Maybe try seeking help like speaking to a counselor if you can and maybe talk to him about you guys getting your own counselors to talk about you’re feelings. I feel like I’ve heard of this kind of thing before. You can be in a relationship and still have anxiety. High functioning anxiety. You can also be in a relationship and be depressed which sounds like him. Seeking help may help and learning ways to calm yourself down. It’ll take time and understanding from both ends and also can get very tiring having to be there for one another during a difficult time.

I’m not counselor I just kind of paid attention to a lot of these topics and I also deal with anxiety and depression myself.

I have been having more good moments but… after that date I had a huge amount of anxiety…. 😞 When we hung out with our friends I just kept thinking I wanted to break up… I keep saying I need help I need help over and over again.. I am gonna lose him… my attraction seems like it’s just gone… whenever I see him play a game or talk to him it’s like I am talking to a child… he’s not even doing anything… sometimes there are parts of his personality that I don’t find attractive sometimes 😞 but I know I’m not gonna find him attractive 24/7z

It could swing either way unfortunately. You could be realizing this isn’t what you want or maybe you’re just freaking out about thoughts that aren’t true. I have heard there is a period of relationship that everyone goes through were the relationship gets “boring”. Idk if that’s what it going on here but I know that we aren’t always gonna like the people we’re around all the time. Relationships are weird. I’ve struggled with mine and then last night I had a dream that I left him but then immediately got upset because I wanted him back. So idk what that was about. I personally feel that you should reach out to someone who is more professional in mental health and just talk about what’s going on with you. Your thoughts and how you feel.