Theres no coming back or anything to go back to, both my themes came true, damage done is too much to fix or im thinking maybe it isnt and im just making it worse by not accepting and embracing my true self, im not even uncertain about it. I wish i could just vanish, stop existing, wouldnt have to worry about a thing then.
Your true self could be anything you want it to be. When we make mistakes, we can learn from them and move forward (there’s no way to go back into the past, so forward is all we got!). We all make bad decisions, but they don’t define us as people. Embrace who you want to be, not your mistakes. Ceasing to exist is something on a lot of our minds, but you’re in a safe space in this community and we all benefit from you sharing your experiences with us, just as our experiences help you/others. I appreciate your post because I do feel the same way sometimes, but now the next time I feel like that I’ll remember this conversation and try to be kind to myself as well