suicidal ocd and harm ocd

what do you mean by active? it’s a constant thought but it brings me fear

i really appreciate it though you taking the time to respond!!

@username255 As someone who struggles with the same themes, I understand what you are going through. I believe what she means is that if you feel that you are in any TRUE danger (I know this may be hard to figure out and you don’t necessarily need to figure it out), but if you do find yourself planning anything or in a dangerous situation, reach out for help. For me, my thoughts try to convince me that I actually do want to die and that this is not ocd. Everyday is a constant struggle trying to figure out “Why” although I know that I have nothing to figure out and I try to live my life, even if my thoughts tell me that I don’t want to. Our thoughts do not define us. Nothing in life is worth ending your life over. We are in control of our actions, not our thoughts. You are safe, even if you don’t feel that way. You are loved and you will get better.

@Anxiousmindsthinkalike this made me feel so much better im screenshotting it and coming back to it when needed. i do have some clarity with myself that if i did feel in danger or start planning i’d check myself in.

@username255 And it most likely will never get to that point! OCD is a liar and likes to make us believe things that are not true. Because you are fearful of it happening, it means that it most likely will never happen. Sometimes I just tell myself to shut up which often works to quite the thoughts.

Don’t be ashamed! I’m glad you found comfort in these posts. Know that you are NEVER alone and your thoughts are never as unique as you think. Remind yourself that this too shall pass and you will shortly gain your joy for life back again.

@Anxiousmindsthinkalike Thank you so much for these words. Hope you're good though💘 we have to stay strong

im glad you found some comfort in our stories!! life is beautiful and i do always think of my girlfriend and family who would be so traumatized by my actions. i could never do that to them.

@username255 It's the same thought i keep having to calm myself down..i would never do that to them, and i would never do that to my little self. I know she's somewhere hurting inside me, and i have to take care of her. Take care of your younger self too❤️

@GiorgieL That thought brings me comfort too. Because even if this isn’t OCD and that’s something I actually want (which I doubt), but I would never do that to my loved ones.

@GiorgieL I also tell myself that even if I actually am suicidal, suicide is NEVER the answer and I will always be able to find a way out of this and be okay again.

@Anxiousmindsthinkalike Exactly..i think the key Is to find a way out in any ways possibile (an healthy way!!) and learn to live with uncertainty

@Anxiousmindsthinkalike This is what I’m struggling with right now I can’t tell if the thoughts mean I really any to or not and I’m scared idk if I’m depressed or not the thoughts scare me I don’t wana die but the thoughts feel real like I’m gonna do something in that moment

@NrseKris do you have urges? or get scared you’re actually depressed and will end up doing it

@username255 Idk if it’s an urge ? The thoughts just get strong and I get scared feeling like something is gonna happen right then and there like I’m just gonna snap or not control myself

@username255 And I’m scared of getting depressed

@NrseKris i think that’s an urge idk

@username255 So what does that mean then ??

@username255 I’m scared of it and don’t wana do it

@NrseKris Me too..i have no experience to say It its ocd or not..but if Is a common symphtom i think It is

@NrseKris nothing bad. it’s apart of the thoughts. you’ll prolly get a better explanation from someone professionally bc personally i dont know exactly what it is

@NrseKris Remember that urges are part of OCD too

@GiorgieL Omg I don’t wana act on an urge now I’m more scared wow

@NrseKris The point Is that you have anxiety because you probably wouldnt act on the urge

@NrseKris i think you’re getting the wrong idea of what an urge is. yk how you get that stomach drop when you think of it? thats an urge

@username255 I think an urge is feeling like you want too do these actions, and it gives you a lot of anxiety, which is also anxiety related, along with the butterfly feeling in your stomach :)

@username255 Ugh that stomach drop feeling is the worst 😱😱

@NrseKris yes it is but I also think that wanting to act on these thoughts are even worse, but in all it’s bad!

@Deb12345! its all horrible. i dont wish it on anybody. this has been the hardest time of my life but im trying.

@username255 I’m trying too. I’m having symptoms and thoughts literally every day . I’m scared to feel these things but I have to

@NrseKris mine don’t stop. i understand