My mom is not helping.
My mother is very aware of my severe pure OCD and tries her best to be supportive, even when it gets really bad. I find comfort in sharing with my mother when I’m having an especially bad day, like today, where my OCD just won’t stop. I had a breakdown because I was exhausted of doing all these compulsions to try to relieve it, and I just broke down crying during our video call. I just wasn’t feeling well. My mother STARTED FILMING ME while I was crying instead of listening to a word I was saying. Mind you, I don’t ever share about my OCD with anyone else. She said she was filming me so I could show it to a doctor once I start therapy so they will “understand the severity of my case.” I felt extremely violated. I understand why my breakdown might scare my mom who wants the best for me, but I felt very embarrassed. I feel like she sees me as this sick person, she didn’t even think twice about grabbing a second phone and start recording our private call. Am I being irrational for being upset at this? I don’t feel safe sharing anything with her anymore. And I don’t need to be reminded of the severity of my case, I am well aware.