I'm so scared? It like if my mind has convinced me

Sometimes ill agree with them and say yes i wanna so and so but then i get worried i said it lol. Ocd is a lie monster nothing more. Just go about your day

@Sp1999 Yea I get you on the worrying part lol. It’s like a month ago I’d be like ah no I don’t want to do that. But I think my brain is so consumed by this that now I’m like yea I guess I wanna do this and it doesn’t bother me anymore and I don’t mind the thoughts but then I get worried about it lol and I know it’s a lie monster it’s just hard to believe it’s a lie when it starts to feel so real sometimes :(

@Kassandrawithak You basically just read my mind lmaooo . Brain being accustomed to the ocd brain thoughts is a real pain. I checked myself today bc my brain was real convincing about liking "big wangs" so i ended up on google images and its confusing but i knew deep down i dont wanna be on there looking at that stuff

@Kassandrawithak I just hope one day it all stops suddenly and i no longer wanna check or anything. Just want to be certain im straight

@Sp1999 I totally feel you! It’s like I miss the old me where I never worried about this and lived my life and was comfortable with who I was and now it’s like I’m constantly questioning everything it sucks. I know we’ll get better though even if it takes time I know we’ll get to a better point

@Kassandrawithak It feels real this time ... i hate this

@Sp1999 What’s going on you can talk to me. Also if you want some of us made a discord that you can add us there too. Or just write it here whatever you’d like!

@Kassandrawithak I havw discord ill join if its easier to talk :) !

@Kassandrawithak Me and my gf went grocery shopping amd shes got a friend whos a man who identifies as a women but tbh her friend doesn't really look like a guy and also complimented saying im handsome and i felt like i blushed but i did smile for the compliment but im just triggered from the thoughts as well. It felt like i liked em for that or felt interested but i domt wanna be because thats still a ma.

@Sp1999 Rn I would just take a deep breath and remind yourself that hey a compliment is a compliment it always feels nice to get complimented regardless of who gives you the compliment! But I do know how distressing this can feel. Once this girl who was bi appeared on YouTube and she really looked like a boy and even tho all I said was “woah she really looks like a guy” my mind completely messed with me on that one and made me think if I saw her I’d like her and I was like no no no I don’t want that

@Sp1999 What’s your discord tag? I’ll add you to the group :) there’s a ton of us sharing similar experiences!

@Kassandrawithak Its so scary but luckily im not trying to look for reassurance. Although i already got a little . It got tense and sometimes i try to reason with myself like dude its a compliment youve gotten compliments from everyone but its cause its a trans man or woman whichever they call it it messes with me . I know im straight and it cant change but the down and feelings that come with make it hard to see

@Kassandrawithak King_Peezy1#4432

@Sp1999 Ok just sent you a friend request then it’ll let me add you to the group!

@Sp1999 It’s one of those things where you have to take the compliment and let it pass which is obviously so much harder to do then say. You’ve got this and I can tell your practicing sitting with the thought and not seeking too much reassurance. Unfortunately we ourselves can sneakily give ourselves reassurance which we have to stop doing or else the cycle keeps happening 😭

@Kassandrawithak Gotchu will add you soon ! & most definitely but its dumb that reassurance cant help, its like wisdom but even that's reassurance and can be harmful. I feel like i cant trust my own brain or self.

Same thing happened to me yesterday! It was getting so bad where it felt too real where I thought I was just always like this and maybe always in denial.