LydiaK

Date posted: 3y

New bizarre intrusive thought

So, i managed to calm myself again and I'm almost getting out of this theme that has been making me suffer for a while but last night my mind decided to generate a new intrusive thought that is really messed up and physically painful. It's a thought about my nail getting removed and i physically feel the pain just by my imagination. It's really painful and i feel like i have to press on my nails to get out of the illusion that they get removed, to stop imagining and feeling pain. I've never had such bizarre intrusive thoughts before.It doesn't cause me anxiety but it causes psychosomatic pain. Wtf brain?!

"Pure" OCD

E.Q.

Date posted: 3y

I've had similar experiences, in terms of ocd I don't think it's that uncommon

LydiaK

Date posted: 3y

That's good to know. It's just that I'm used to feel emotional pain and anxiety with my intrusive thought, not literal physical pain. It's like my own brain is out to get me at this point.

username255

Date posted: 3y

i get pyschasomatic pain with my most recent thought. it’s normal. it makes it even harder but normal. especially when they’re mixed with the urge

LydiaK

Date posted: 3y

Honestly, it's a really upsetting thing to get stuck on. Who knew that imagination is all you need to feel literal physical pain🙃

Anon1294

Date posted: 3y

Every time I develop a new fear or intrusive thought I remind myself I can nip it in the bud by exposing myself to that fear. Think about it happening and don't try to shake the thought away. Let the anxiety come and pass. Imagine it happening as many times as you need for your Brian to realize it wouldn't even be that bad if that did happen. There's pain medicine, finger splints, and the nail would grow back! Pain is temporary so if it did happen it would soon go away!

username255

Date posted: 3y

this wouldn’t be the best way to look at most themes😂

Anon1294

Date posted: 3y

@username255 This is actually how you treat most themes. You can apply it to any theme, that's exactly how you practice unconditional acceptance. I've read many books and I'm in therapy so this is a common way to accept the thoughts and take their power away. For example I have suffered with pocd. That's the worst thing I could imagine being. The best thing is to imagine the terrible thing happening until the power is taken away and it doest seem scary anymore because you've exposes yourself to it to the full extent

LydiaK

Date posted: 3y

That's actually what i do! Main reason why i get over the pain and get to live a good life. I try my best to never give in to it and do compulsions.I just observe the thought without doing anything to get out of it and then it just passes.

username255

Date posted: 3y

@Anon1294 with mine being suicidal and harm, think about it happening for my brain to realize it wouldn’t be that bad if it did happen? uh i dont know about that one. sounds like real suicidal ideations.

LydiaK

Date posted: 3y

@username255 It's actually is. It's called exposure and it's literally the only solution to ocd. This or if you can't handle thinking of the thoughts intentionally, stop yourself from doing any compulsions when they appear by themselves.

LydiaK

Date posted: 3y

@username255 No, it wouldn't be suicidal ideation. It would simply be you letting your thoughts pass without any judgement. You neither accept nor disapprove of them. Because thoughts, are just thoughts. By reacting with aversion towards them by doing compulsions (avoidance, research e.t.c), you literally notify your brain to consider them important and make them appear non stop.

LydiaK

Date posted: 3y

@username255 Now that i reread the whole thing, you probably misunderstood what they meant. They didn't literally mean to think of the thoughts as "something not bad" when it comes to what they explicitly mean, but to think of the "action" of thinking of them as "nothing that bad" because they don't define who you are and what to you want to do. They're just thoughts, and it ain't bad to have thoughts, whethey they are bad or not because they're just that. Thoughts. I hope you get what i mean and i didn't confuse you.

username255

Date posted: 3y

@LydiaK ohhh! i completely misread that haha. this has been the 2nd time today i misread something and took it completely different than what it was 😂 im very sorry and i hope i did not come off rude as my head was like “???” i get what you’re saying now thank you for breaking it down!!

LydiaK

Date posted: 3y

@username255 Nah no worries, it's normal to misread things from time to time. Been there done that 😂

dewy star

Date posted: 25w

Idk how I can go on living with these thoughts

It seems like every time I feel that I have an understanding of my intrusive thoughts and an understanding on how to deal with them I’m hit with a new and weirder intrusive thoughts that send me spiraling on what it means. I constantly search up the intrusive thoughts that I have to see if anyone online had a similar thought and that usually works and I calm down but there are a few time where the thought just feels too unusual and idk how to deal with it.

Anonymous

Date posted: 24w

Intrusive thoughts

I’ve had many types of OCD, but I gained control over them over the years, but a new one has started to arise. Do y’all ever have scary thoughts about something you might do? Recently I’ll get extremely uncomfortable no matter where I am because I can’t stop thinking about “what if I screamed really loud in my lecture class tomorrow?” And other stupid stuff like that. Also, this one is kind of funny, but sometimes when I use the bathroom I pause before because I think “what if I’m actually in class right now?” I also cannot control the thoughts about past embarrassing moments. I know everyone does, but I will become visibly uncomfortable and harp on something from years ago. This happens all throughout the day. Also, does anyone else do things that resemble tics when you get these thoughts. Like when they happen I’ll curse under my breath or like jerk my head a little bit. When I’m in public I keep it low key but when I’m alone sometimes I’ll physically get up and pace or something when those thoughts happen. Just curious if anyone has had these experiences

lu22

Date posted: 23w

Suffering a lot, need advice, have no therapy 🙁🙁

I feel like this time I can’t pick myself back up. It felt too real like I don’t even belive it wasn’t real I fully feel like it was my own feeling and I genuinely felt that. I had stabbing intrusive thoughts, I imaginined it on purpose to test my reaction and then it felt like I know how it feels to physically do that action (stab someone) and I like how it feels then I was getting these urge feelings and it felt like I wanted it and then I was imagining the thoughts again about stabbing someoneI care about multiple times and then It suddenly felt like I was really happy about the thought and almost like I really enjoyed it and realised why evil people enjoy doing these things like I felt what they felt like I’ve discovered a ‘thrill’ feeling of doing that evil thing and I can’t get over it I can’t figure out why it felt like that and now I’m thinking because it felt like I liked it and it felt good I will be curious about being evil or want to be evil to feel that feeling again and it’s really messed up and I don’t know what to do everytime I think about it it feels like there is actually something wrong with me I no longer have anxiety or feel really worried about the thoughts I feel numb and that feeling is really making me feel bad like I can’t live normally now it feels like I am actually evil now and I don’t even know if I have morals or if i would be evil or not. Normally with my thoughts no matter how real it’s felt I’ve managed to convince myself why I had a certain feeling and why it’s not real and why I’m a good person but this time it actually feels like that feeling was from me and I actually felt really happy and enjoyed or got a thrill from the idea of doing that horrible thing like I can’t even say it feels real because I’m thinking it is real I don’t know what to do 🙁🙁I’ve had ocd for a few years but don’t get anxious anymore and this feels like I’m actually bad or would want to do it because of that feeling

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