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- ocd and me
- Date posted
- 2y ago
I am so sorry that this has been your experience. This actually breaks my heart. ERP is challenging and I believe a therapist can challenge you and be supportive at the same time. Have you tried NOCD? I know we accept many insurances and offer payment plans. We do see people in the UK and in many other countries- not just the US. Either way please let your parents know how are you feeling and that you would like to change therapists- you need to feel heard and valued. It is important to recognize that no case is ever hopeless! You can get better from OCD and live the life that you envision. You may always have the OCD but you can find it way more manageable. Some people take longer than others to get to a place where they are ready and committed to treatment for whatever reasons. That's okay. You are not a lost cause!!!
Rude as hell for no reason. Absolutely continue with ERP therapy with another therapist. Though please note that there’s no cure for any mental illness, but you can recover. Recovery time takes a while; I was in intense therapy for 3 years before recovering from my mental illnesses. There’s definitely benchmarks that you should hit but they’re flexible because everyone is an individual.
thank you!
My therapist is horrendous also. I have asked to change her 3 times now and had to put in a complaint about her, which I hate as it's the NHS
i hope you find a better fit :)
Kelly do you mind me asking if your nhs therapist is using ERP therapy? I’m in UK too and have previously had CBT through IAPT but didn’t find it very helpful.
You did nothing wrong. You were just trapped in an unfortunate situation with a psycho therapist who should not be allowed near anyone with OCD. Reading this was shocking because I cannot believe someone like that could still be in practice without having had a lawsuit on their hands for malpractice. That’s just insane to me.
No, you aren’t incurable. I understand how you might feel this way because unfortunately, we all do. Just because a therapist tells you these things doesn’t mean it’s true. At the end of the day, we have to realize that liscensed therapists and professionals are humans too. They aren’t perfect and will sometimes make mistakes much like in your case. It wasn’t right of her to make you feel so low about yourself. I highly suggest finding another therapist that is more patient with your thoughts and compulsions
thank you so so much
it angers me beyond belief that this is my brain, I’m fucking sick and tired of going through this shit alone or burdening my parents with my panic, I do all the dam ERP in the world and this panic still ain’t stopping, I’m fucking through with this shit, I hear people all the time say your not trying hard enough or ERP takes time, well I’ve been doing ERP my whole fucking 22 years of being on this planet and the panic hasn’t stopped, and yes I’ve been to about 20 therapists, I probably have a file on me as big as a dissertation about all my dam thoughts, I’ve seen many psychiatrists, been on many meds, tried to start TMS, couldn’t go through with it because of my thoughts, I can barely blink without my thoughts screaming at me like a drill instructor, I’m socially isolated because the pandemic and I’m losing hope, all anyone tells me is your not trying hard enough with ERP, or your improving, without any evidence to back up said claim when in fact the opposite is true, I’ve declined. I’m trying so fucking hard just to wake up, I’m sorry, I really am, but this is just unreasonable, you wouldn’t go up to a cancer patient and say work harder, put me on the right meds or give me euthanasia because it’s not ok how the system treats people with OCD
My last ERP therapist was aggressive. Not sure if it’s supposed to be that way but I always felt worse after our sessions. Is that suppose to happen? Can ERP not work for everyone?
My ocd was weaponized by a therapist who wanted to do trauma work. Against my wishes. She told me “why are you in therapy if you don’t want to do the work”. I didn’t know about my childhood trauma. But she found it, and judged me for it. And then put intrusive thoughts in my head. It wasn’t until this week that I realized that I might be suffering from ocd. My family is getting sick of me. I’m stuck in a negative tape loop. After therapy I started having panic attacks and now am faced with dealing with anxiety and depression almost daily. I’m so pissed at her. I think I’m traumatized by going to therapy. She taught my brain to look for trouble. She also put unhelpful thoughts in my heads. Oh, and when my lizard brain found the guilt and shame of childhood. She told me to imagine a golden box to put it back in. My inner child wants to burn my house down and has no plans on leaving. So, I feel stuck.
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