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Hocd
My brain makes me feel happy with liking girls it no longer is anxiety it feels like my brain is forcing me into it. I don’t know how to explain it. I’m so tired of this. I just want to like guys & be happy.
My brain makes me feel happy with liking girls it no longer is anxiety it feels like my brain is forcing me into it. I don’t know how to explain it. I’m so tired of this. I just want to like guys & be happy.
I know how you feel it's just because you're brain has become accustomed to it. It's actually a sign you're getting better. It was really strange going through this. I'm a male. when it first started it was like I couldn't look another male , then forced myself to do erp then the anxiety left, then felt like I became my fear , then felt bi then felt asexual then went back to feeling how I use to before the intrusive thoughts kicked in
Have you managed to overcome HOCD ? X
Me too 😔😔 I feel like i enjoy "liking" women and that I'm destined to be in a lesbian relationship
Yeah. You have to probably take SSRI S , I'm on Sertraline 200 mg, was originally on 100 mg and didn't do anything and then it allowed me to do erp and it just fades away.
As a lesbian with SO-OCD, I feel so helpless. It's truly exhausting because no one I know understands what I'm going through. The first response is always, "You're just confused" or "You don't have to know yet." But that's not the issue, I do know. I just never see any lesbians with SO-OCD so I feel so invalidated. These thoughts flood my brain constantly, forcing me to analyze my reactions to every man I see. I feel trapped in an endless cycle of "testing" myself, trying to prove that I don't like them. But my brain fights back, telling me I do want to love a man, making it feel real even though don't want it. It's terrifying. At this point, it's hard to even hold onto my identity as a lesbian because I'm so overwhelmed. I don't know if this is what real attraction is supposed to feel like, and that fear eats away at me. The truth is, when I think about being with a man, all I feel is disgust and fear-but my brain twists that into doubt. I hate it. I'm at the point where I'm scared I'm going to have to accept something I don't want because I don't know if this will ever go away. I miss who I was before all this.
I really dont know if it is ocd anymore I dont want certain sexual things with my bf anymore that i used to like When i envision it with a girl it is so easy to envision and it feels like i want that , that will give me the satisfaction This feeling is making me really question if i am still into men , desire men sexually Is this still ocd , i really dont know anymore , as it is a feeling it is too real
I struggle with HOCD or SOOCD. I’m a married young woman to an amazing husband. I’ve had this since I was 16 but it only came in flair ups. However this round started in October, and it’s been really rough and I would just break down all the time. I went up on my medication and I actually noticed a difference! My thoughts were still very present but I wasn’t really paying attention to them or giving them power. HOWEVER right when I thought I was getting better, my brain started feeling and saying to myself that I just know I am bi but you want to make excuses for it like “oh it’s normal to find someone hot since we as a society have an interpretation of what that looks like” or “I see the girl as myself and that’s what ‘turns’ me on” or “well I mean that girl looks kind of like a man” and it’s it’s making me spiral. I won’t ever come out as Bi as deep in my soul I don’t feel I am. I have always wanted to be with men sexually and romantically and that has not changed but my brain is making me believe I am and I just don’t want to admit it. Please help me, what has helped you?
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