vmurso22
- Date posted
- 3y
Depression
Does anyone else face depression and OCD? It’s relentless I’m struggling so bad….yesterday I just laid on the couch all day long…sleeping, like wtf I don’t want feel like this anymore…
lifeisworthit lifeisworthit
- Date posted
- 3y
I’ve been there. I just want to say things will change (even if that doesn’t seem possible in the moment) and you will have better days. We get tunnel vision when things are dark but remember that it’s going to be better and you’ll be so glad you stuck around. You seem like a really good person. There’s hope, I promise :)
vmurso22vmurso22
- Date posted
- 3y
I’ve been feeling like this for almost a year, been to counseling and i don’t seem to be getting better, I just want to snap out of it but I can’t….😞 my subconscious is just so negative and I can’t change it, everyday is the same
AnonymousAnonymous
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 3y
Time heals all wounds. Stay in there! I was in a bad place myself where i felt like there was no getting out of. Be open minded with your thoughts and feelings but non judgemental. When you stop labeling or judging the thoughts, they eventually start feeling less and less heavy. There will be good days, there will be bad days, but its part of life. Tell the ocd you no longer are scared and try laughing at the thoughts. You got this!!!
vmurso22vmurso22
- Date posted
- 3y
That’s what I do, I label my thoughts like crazy and tell myself there is really something wrong with me and that I need to go back to hospital
AnonymousAnonymous
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 3y
@vmurso22 Eventually youll start to realize that thoughts are simply a string of words, images are just a picture. They do not mean anything unless you give it value. Think about it, you dwell on the negative which causes them to stick around. You are amazing and will find peace before you know it. I have faith 🙌🏻
sindija_izasaresindija_izasare
- Date posted
- 3y
Hey I know how you feel. I’m 28 y old from U.K. and have ocd I think since I born I think cuz I remember many things that pop in my mind. As a young kid I took those thoughts very serious and that made me extremely anxious and I didn’t know why it was that bad. I realised that I have ocd like few years ago when I typed on google my thought and there was ocd on the top of the list but still I was like oh no it’s not I’m crazy etc. My intrusive thoughts was on and off until I get triggered by tv or life event but I always had checking and washing hands and scared of germs which didn’t bother me too much as it was mild sometimes severe. I thought this is enough to live like this for 28 years. I contacted my doctor and they told me that I have to wait on the waiting list for like 5 months and I was soo upset cuz I need to still live this way. Told my best friend about my thoughts and she was like oh yes I get them too and same to my sister and some other people too and all this 28 years I thought I am crazy for having such a thing in my mind but just figured it out that intrusive thoughts are normal. That made me feel better. Now I read book about “break free from ocd” and it kinda helps until my real cbt therapy day. Main thing is don’t give up NEVER.
vmurso22vmurso22
- Date posted
- 3y
Thank you guys, the tough part is the depression, it makes me feel like I have nothing to look forward too, this is all started a year ago when me and my girlfriend of 5 years broke up…she was my everything, my best friend, I really looked forward to marrying her, then it all vanished
AnonymousAnonymous
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 3y
I was in the same boat! Same situation. Felt like depression and ocd got extremely worse after it all. I still often have dreams about it all but guess what? Life is too short to dwell on what could have been, you gotta find peace within yourself and believe that the right person IS out there for you. I got your back
vmurso22vmurso22
- Date posted
- 3y
@Anonymous I hear you, it’s like I’m living in the past in my head…I’m not focusing on the present, I just have so much pain, I’m just so deep in my head, my thoughts tell me your not right, your so messed up…I don’t even know which way is up I get so deep in my thoughts and I don’t know how to stop
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- Date posted
- 17w
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- Date posted
- 17w
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andrea_sam730
- Date posted
- 16w
I’m so tired I just wanna be free
I know I keep talking about This but I’m too tired :( I’m really struggling and I don’t know what to do anymore. I feel like I might be the only person who experiences this in the way I do. It’s gotten so bad that during intimacy or self-pleasure, I feel like I’m acting on a thought — like my body is moving because of it. It’s terrifying and deeply hurtful. The moment it happens, I immediately panic, try to rewind everything in my head, and ruminate to figure out what I was thinking at that exact second… but I can never remember. That makes it even worse. feel so lost and hopeless, like I’ll never be able to heal or move on from this. People tell me “it’s just OCD,” but it doesn’t feel like OCD to me. It feels like I’m the exception — like no one else truly experiences it like this, especially the part where it feels like I physically responded to a thought. I know people say “others go through this too,” but my mind keeps saying, “not like this, not this specific thing.”Sometimes I just wish I could go back and relive those moments so I could be sure what happened, but I know that’s not possible. I feel so stuck in guilt and doubt that I don’t even know who I am anymore. I’m scared I’m a bad person and that I’ll always feel this way. I’ll never be free or be the same again everyday I live with deep depression
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