(HELP) Hey guys, I almost had a panic attack about 5 minutes ago, I thought I was going to go insane and lose entire control of my thoughts and have to be admitted into a mental facility because of me wanting to cause harm to myself and others. Me and my mom were in the car and I was thinking about jumping out and of course I know it was just my dark intrusive thoughts coming strong BUT I actually opened the door a little bit and almost wanted to jump in the traffic, I got SO DAMN SCARED because just doing that made me feel like I was going insane and I felt like I was going to go insane and end up in a psych ward for all of the intrusive thoughts I was having! I’ve had thoughts about hurting myself, my parents, loved ones, friends, and it’s scary as hell because the dark thoughts are making me feel like I want to do them but I don’t want to do them! This is all new to me! I’ve only had these dark thoughts since Sunday and now I’m scared for my LIFE! I am losing hope because I don’t want to have to go through these thoughts anymore for that much longer, and even almost attempting to jump out of the car was REALLY a scare for me, I am getting help and going to a group therapy, going to a 1 on 1 therapy and I started Prozac 20 MG last Saturday night BUT, I’m feeling like my case is severe and that’s even worrying me, I’m so scared for my life, SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME!

This is the anxiety taking over. You will not hurt yourself or others because it’s simply something you don’t want to do. The reason you are freaking out so bad is because it’s the opposite of your beliefs and values. OCD sees your scared of those thoughts so it’s giving you feelings and urges that feel real. Trust yourself a little and know that if it was really something you wanted to do you wouldn’t be scared of it. You would actually enjoy these thoughts. Take some deep breathes and some time for yourself. Do something so relaxing or eat something that you love and just tell yourself that this is just OCD. That these mean nothing other then you’re brain is trying to figure out information it doesn’t need to figure out. Know that I have been there. You are not alone. You are so strong. You will get through this. The less you react to the thoughts the more they won’t make you as anxious. They will make you really anxious at first but that is when you treat it like a panic attack and do breathing exercises or anything that distracts you. You’ve got this. I believe in you???

TRUST ME I Have had all of those EXACT same thoughts you had. And I am still here trucking through it all. You WILL get through this trust me

I did this exact same thing when my OCD was at it's worst and I got so scared. for me the start of it all was the worst part because I had no idea what was happening. there are still going to be bad days but managing it should become easier with the right help and practice.

All I want is for this to END! I want to go back to my normal life with no mental health worries living HAPPY! And I feel like I’m never going to get that back, I’m so scared and sad and hopeless about it. Please reassure me that I’ll be ok I’m scared so so so scared

Almost wanting to attempt to jump made me feel like WOW if I could do that, I can attempt to hurt or kill myself or hurt or kill someone else! IM SCARED IM SO SCARED IM GETTING HELP but this scared me SO MUCH I’m scared for my life