SO-OCD & ROCD

Sometimes I get so upset with myself. My bf and I have been dating for 1 year & 6 month but it was about 5 months ago that I was never dealing with OCD or even had any idea of all the other OCDs, like that ones I'm dealing with now. I never questioned myself or relationship with my bf. I gotten better over time but it just so heart breaking to me. I can't stop comparing the person I used to be. I was "normal" and happy, my life and relationship was going great, but now I often cry to my bf and always tell him "I'm sorry this is the me that you get now, I wish all this would have happened before I met you". It's just heavy on my heart sometime.

melissaaa

113d ago

I understand girl really… I feel the same stay strong we got this it’s hard but we can do it

birdee_

113d ago

I feel this sooooo much, and honestly seeing your post made me feel better bc it’s sadly so common. When I feel like this I always remind myself that nothing has actually changed - it feels like it has but the only difference is I’ve taken some silly thoughts a bit too seriously, nothing with my relationship or the way I feel is different. That helps me give the thoughts less power, like they’re so meaningless that I shouldn’t feel like they’ve had this kind of impact or I’m wishing for my pre-OCD life. But definitely easier said than done sometimes.

Only-hot-people-have-ocd

113d ago

YES. I’ve been married for almost a year now and I feel SO DAMN guilty that he’s being “dragged” along and that I suddenly need all this reassurance. I feel insane sometimes, and crappy that I can’t be my old self with him all the time. But In a sense it’s nice to embrace the “OCD” you because once you get it under control it’ll still always be a part of you, but just know that it’s manageable and it IS comforting to at least realize where the false thoughts/feelings are coming from.