- Username
- MissLovely
- Date posted
- 5y ago
That's so good that it stopped! Forcing myself to drink water I fear that bleach is in, helps a bit. I even forced myself to put my drink right beside tge bleach whilst having a bath, and then forced myself to drink it afterwards. I was very scared that I was ganna die but I thought to myself, if there was any bleach in this it would burn my mouth severely
Wow right next to the bleach bottle!? Good for you!!! That's so awesome you pushed yourself that much!!
Yes! I've worried that I put poison or pills got into my drink. I haven't personally thought of glass but that makes sense. The poison or bleach or anything caustic is definitely contamination OCD. The glass probably falls in that category or just catastrophic thinking.
I’ve had something similar but it’s that a drink might have alcohol in it. I’ll have my husband taste it to reassure ??♀️
You know I use to get so paranoid if I didn’t pour a drink myself that maybe someone was gonna poison me and I’d even get worried and smell the drink and think it smelled off when it was totally fine
That's interesting about thinking there were pill remnants in the water! With my contamination type I am constantly thinking there might be the smallest amount of something. Especially if something contaminated and also greasy or sticky gets into my mouth I can't just brush my teeth and feel like it's gone. I have to wash my mouth out and get a new toothbrush because I feel like it's still on the toothbrush. I'm actually just sort of realizing this might be overkill. It feels like it makes sense even if it's exhausting and no one else seems to do it! I hate the thoughts of what if this happened well I guess I should protect against it just in case!
That's a good exposure making yourself drink it even if you think it's contaminated! I eventually just said I have no recollection of any poison actually being in my drink it's really unrealistic I'll just have to risk it and eventually it stopped!
Thank you guys! If poison was in our house I'd worry about that too. But the most poisonous thing in the house is bleach.. I worry about the alcohol thing too! If I drink the night before, I worry that I poured alcohol into the big coke bottle and if my niece or nephew ask to try it I won't let them just in case. And I also get the pill one thinking of it! I wash my meds down with bottled drinks most of the time, and I worry that because I washed my pills down with it, that somehow the remenences of the pills got into the drink, so again, if my niece and nephew ask to drink it, I say no. I force myself to drink stuff even if I think it is contaminated. But I never let anyone else drink it. I had to pour my nephew a glass of milk a while ago and I worried I'd put pills in it which was stupid, and I worried all night that he was ganna die. And I also had the poison one. Worried family members put poison in my food to kill me because I felt like they hated me.
I totally understand where you're coming from. I hate the feeling of something sticky on my teeth too. I usually get it off with my tongue, even if it's something like toffee. I will pull with my tongue to get it off. It makes my tongue ache really bad cause I put a lot of strain on it. Xx
Thank you xx
I just bought a sandwich from a place I’ve been to many times and this time there was only one young guy at the shop making it. He seemed very nice, but for some reason I’m worried he drugged or poisoned my food because no one was around. I continuously have this as one of my main OCD fears, that my food or drinks will be drugged or poisoned and I will lose control and go into psychosis. Does anyone have similar fears? Any advice about how to handle these fears? I don’t want to keep avoiding food and throwing it out because of these fears.
Just wondering if there are people in this community who are like me and feel contaminated from people but it is NOT about the fear of getting sick nor getting other people sick. It is simply (but debilitatingly) a fear of having the contamination of a stranger's bodily fluid on me e.g oils, sweat, and worse. Although my therapist tells me others have this type, even here contamination OCD seems to always go back to a fear of getting sick or making someone else sick. I am not sure if this could trigger someone so I will add a trigger warning. Thank you all.
Hi everyone, I’m new here and just wanted to see if there’s anyone out there who relates to me in any type of way so i don’t feel like a weirdo lol. I’ve had food anxiety my entire life, and it’s gotten progressively worse over the years. it started off with meat (chicken especially) now i’m scared of raw fruits and veggies (due to ecoli, salmonella, parasites, etc.) and now it’s even coming down to simple things like bread or milk. I throw food out all the time when it’s literally fresh but my mind tells me i’ll get sick from it. i stick to specific “safe foods” that i don’t think i’ll get sick from and 99% of the time it’s not healthy and it stresses me out that i’ll have problems later on when i’m older (i also have health anxiety) i even overthink about the way the grocery store workers stock food, thinking they’ve left it out for too long. it’s ridiculous. i love food, i’m just scared of throwing up and getting food poisoning. anything that involves throw up: i’m out. i even overthink about bleach and lysol somehow getting into my food if someone is cleaning near me. i hope there’s someone who understands in some type of way. i cant even enjoy eating out at a restaurant with friends or family. i hope after i talk to a therapist it could help. I’m happy i’m taking a step in the right direction :)
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