My OCD wants me to think that I am high

Recently, I got high for the first time, and it was a terrible experience. Even after WEEKS I still have moments where I think I am high or am dissociating. It seems that my OCD picked up on the anxiety that I felt while I was high and tells me frequently that I am intoxicated. It sucks! I can’t even focus in school or do anything without my parents being there. I am old enough to be by myself but my OCD has gotten so bad after this event that I can’t leave my parents side. Does anyone know a mental compulsion or something to prevent this feeling. I am currently blanking out/feel high as I am typing this.

Username: meghins

Date posted: 398d ago

Let me just say I used to be a huge stoner in high school and had a really bad high which caused an insane panic attack. Now I’m In college and I still freak out about somehow being high even if the circumstances make nooo sense. You are not alone in this I totally understand you <3

Username: patricia12

Date posted: 398d ago

This happened to me because of an edible I had…. The worse experience, never again.

Username: Narissa

Date posted: 398d ago

Did you ever feel better? What did you do to cope?

Username: meghins

Date posted: 398d ago

@Narissa For me it actually got to a point where I had a hard time eating because I was convinced someone had laced my food as funny as that sounds. I’m still working through it but when anxiety gets so hard I like to ground myself first and use mindfulness to calm my body a bit and then I just think to myself “thanks for that thought brain but I’m gonna keep eating this sandwich lol” or “wow I really hope im high that’s so sick” I know it’s sounds insane but honestly it’s kinda helped me realize that what was giving this fear power was the fact that I was so scared of it.

Username: patricia12

Date posted: 398d ago

To be honest, I just went through it, felt the anxiety and the thoughts eventually disappeared

Username: meghins

Date posted: 398d ago

@patricia12 EXACTLY!