I look at him and I feel almost nothing anymore. It’s worse when he’s away. And when we are together. It flip flops.. I don’t feel like myself anymore. I’m trying but, I haven’t in a long time. I keep thinking that i’m just in this relationship for my own sake. For my own pleasure and that kills me. This has taken over my life. Not to mention, I keep seeing angel numbers. I feel like I’ve been dealing with this for soo long that im giving into all my thoughts and now they seem real. I just want to cry. I want a life with him.. but it’s so hard.. I don’t wanna give up on us.. but it’s so hard

Have you tried talking to him about it?

Yes.. and its been a minute since weve had one like this but sometimes I feel like its a compulsion so I dont. But I will again today.

Don’t give up!

I have experienced the exact same minus the angel numbers

It’s so hard… I’m a person that loves so deep so all of this just hurts..

@gracedomingo I understand you very well :/

I don’t want to lose him …. I don’t want to have this connection with someone else… I just want him for my future but my head telling me the opposite

COMPLETELY FELT.

@gracedomingo The only thing I feel right now is sadness and heart break , I don’t know if I need to listen to the toughs but i don’t want to lose him

I feel you girl but you know what I understand sm recently that it’s bc of ocd that you don’t feel anything not you. I spent 5 days with him and when I left I was so scared I wasn’t gonna miss him but I did. I cried this morning bc i realised he was going to leave soon and I won’t be able to see him for a while that was me, that was how I felt for him, if you don’t feel anything I know it’s really really hard but allowed it even if u feel you are lying you are still with him so it’s bc you love him