Does anyone spend so much time making scenarios to see if you feel anything AnYwHeRe and by the “end” you’ve just convinced yourself you’re in denial?

Yeah!

But I think it's a compulsion ((

Yes I do this so often, which is not helpful. Then when I feel basically nothing or not what I think I would normally feel, I start really freaking out. Then of course worry that all my crushes on guys have been fake, etc.