does anyone else feel like their compulsion is also their intrusive thought? like my brain says "if you do *intrusive thought*, you wont deal with said intrusive thought again." i really need help because it deals with harm ocd and i really dont want to do anything bad. im so scared. i know it's lying, but it doesnt feel like it and i just feel so stressed and anxious.
Yes, my 12 year old daughter has the same thoughts with her OCD and her compulsion is to tell me over and over what she is going to do. She feels like she wants to do it, and by telling me over and over I will stop her. But she doesnt believe it is OCD, she thinks it it just her own self. We are starting therapy Tuesday and I am really hoping it can help her see it is not her, but in fact OCD that is making her feel like this. š
What you describe is very common, ocd says that acting on the thoughts is the solution to your OCD. This feels super scary and horrible, Iāve been there. And it presents itself as a big riddle, waiting to be figured out. Whatās the compulsion here ? What do I believe ? What if I believe it ? OCD wants you to start a discussion - it will say everything to start a debate. Your only way out is not to solve the puzzle, itās a scary sentence in your head, it cannot change your belief or your values. Itās just words. My OCD tells me this kind of bullshit all day long. I feel like saying āNo ! Thatās not trueā - which starts a big investigation. So instead I say āmaybe !? I will not figure this out, even if it feels āwrongā/scary not toā¦
But its so hard when it involves big life decisions like whether or not to stay married with your partner. And in my case, just having the thoughts lead to depression. I dont know how I could have done differently to avoid this outcome. The thoughts feel like me, like they are actually how I really feel and that I am supressing them. We have had other difficulties in our relationship that relate to my fear of sex so I think that anxiety fuels these leaving thoughts. But I know I love him. But its easier to run away from what is scary.
Please know that OCD lies...it's kinda what it does...it says things like..oh just do this and you will feel better (lies, all lies). Compulsions may bring about a short term relief in some instances but never a long term. That is why it is imperative to resist the urge to do compulsions. I would highly recommend that you work with a specialist in OCD to help identify the best ERP exercises for you. Please call NOCD for your 15 minute free call to get started.
Yes, for me I have gotten intense intrusive thoughts about breaking up with my husband. I have other anxieties (about intimacy and future) that have contributed to this feeling but a few weeks ago the thoughts just came out of nowhere and wouldnt stop. I felt pushade against a wall, like I needed to act on the thoughts or else. It lead me into a depression and I couldnt sleep/eat. I dont understand what my compulsion is/was in that moment because it was a thought and I couldnt do anything else. Didnt feel like I was neutralizing either or fixing. Maybe you have some insight?
Yes
My Harm OCD is out of control. Iām trying so hard to keep living my life, but itās scaring me even more. Itās starting to feel more real. Itās feeling like Iām right on the edge of acting on my thoughts and that I actually want to do it. It feels like this is never going to go away and Iām now this person who is going to harm someone. Iām at work because Iām supposed to keep living my life and not do compulsions. But not doing them is terrifying me. I feel like a complete monster and I donāt know what to do.
ive had harm type for years. itās focused around my mom and if i want to hurt her and i spiral and itās terrifying. sometimes i get scared that im insane and that i donāt actually have ocd, ect. my compulsions are usually going on my phone (what im doing now, i know, im trying) to distract myself or i try to comfort myself almost like reassuring. does anyone else struggle with this? I just need to know im not alone.
I am really struggling. I feel like I have a constant harm related intrusive thought in my head, causing a horrible intrusive feeling in my head. Even if Iām just simply scrolling and see someone sometimes this feeling of an intrusive thought becomes present, leading it to become horrid intrusive thoughts and feelings. I would never want to hurt anyone. Let alone do it and Iām struggling so much. I feel like I have a constant harm related intrusive thought in my head and feeling. Which is reinforced when I look at people. It goes when im distracted and then i remember the horrid feeling. I feel like bursting into tears, ive had enough. Can anyone relate? I feel like a constant intrusive thought and feeling IN my head im so sad :( I feel horrid. Scared ill go crazy.
Share your thoughts so the Community can respond
