chelsbingy
- Date posted
- 6y ago
KamilKamil
- Date posted
- 6y ago
Yes that is my main “OCD” right now. Ive had plenty of other subtypes that were hard but this one feels the most intrusive for me personally as its mental and existential so to me personally its harder because with other subtypes like Gay OCD or Health OCD i learned to accept that its just a thought and if it happens it happens life goes on. However i feel like my brain automatically fights the feelings of depersonalization or derealization with panic and then the OCD locks it in and its all i think about all day everyday and i feel like i cant be “in the moment” with whatever is going on.
KamilKamil
- Date posted
- 6y ago
Were in this together! Keep your head up and i guess all we can do is try to accept it for what it is. My fear is since this happened to me now i know how to kinda create the thought and im afraid that ill never forget it or it will never go away. Thats my biggest kind of “trigger”
Pippa12Pippa12
- Date posted
- 6y ago
This is me right now too I feel like I’m in my body and seeing everything I normally see but I’m not me ?nothing I do gives me the usual feeling I’d normally get and I just feel un human and in a bit of a daze, really puts me on edge sometimes, like i just want to run and running. When I start to feel “normal” I think about when I didn’t feel normal again. OCD is one f****d up condition but it’s good we know we are not alone and can support each other
chelsbingychelsbingy
- Date posted
- 6y ago
Yes I hear you, it’s like I’m trying to be “me” so much that I feel nothing like me
KamilKamil
- Date posted
- 6y ago
I get these like flashes of reality its so weird where its like over whelming sensation of holy shit im here this is happening whats the point where its literally like my sub concious mind becomes my main mind
chelsbingychelsbingy
- Date posted
- 6y ago
Yes that is me too and then my ocd switches to what if your a man in a women’s body. I feel like my brain is reaching for anything because I just don’t feel “like me” just feel such like a stranger to myself right now. I’m glad I’m not alone. I’m sorry you go through this too, it’s been so hard
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Secretidentity
- Date posted
- 20w ago
Does any one ever question if their ocd isn’t ocd?
That’s kinda my question. All my thoughts feel so realistic and so now I doubt if they are ocd and if I just can’t make my mind up about something and I’m using ocd as an excuse or something idc I feel like this post is word vomit.
Mariabae
- Date posted
- 7w ago
i am disconnected rocd
Lately, I’ve been feeling so disconnected from my boyfriend, and I don’t understand why. When I look at him, it feels like I’m looking at a stranger, and my mind keeps telling me that I don’t like him, that I never really loved him, or that I was just attached and comfortable. It feels real, and that terrifies me. I know logically that ROCD makes me overanalyze every little feeling, but it doesn’t make this any easier. I keep waiting to feel something—love, excitement, even relief—but instead, I just feel numb and distant. When we talk, I feel weird. When he kisses me, I don’t feel much. I keep thinking, ‘If I really loved him, wouldn’t I feel something?’ And the fact that I don’t just fuels my anxiety even more. It scares me that I can’t remember how I felt before ROCD took over. I look at old pictures, and my brain tells me, ‘That wasn’t real, you were just excited to have a relationship.’ And because I can’t access those feelings right now, it makes me doubt everything even more. I also feel guilty because my boyfriend is so loving and patient, but I feel like I’m hurting him. He tells me he doesn’t feel loved by me anymore, and I hate that I can’t just snap out of this and be the way I was before. It’s exhausting. I don’t know what’s real anymore. I keep checking how I feel every second, and it just makes me feel worse. I know that’s a compulsion, but it’s so hard to stop. I keep searching for certainty, but no answer satisfies me. Even when I try to accept the uncertainty, my mind screams, ‘But what if you don’t love him? What if you’re just lying to yourself?’ I want to be present with him. I want to feel love naturally again. But I don’t know how to get there, and it’s terrifying.”
kayla.
- Date posted
- 7w ago
derealization depersonalization.
i came out of it now i’m back in , what helps?
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