chelsbingy
- Date posted
- 6y ago
KamilKamil
- Date posted
- 6y ago
Yes that is my main “OCD” right now. Ive had plenty of other subtypes that were hard but this one feels the most intrusive for me personally as its mental and existential so to me personally its harder because with other subtypes like Gay OCD or Health OCD i learned to accept that its just a thought and if it happens it happens life goes on. However i feel like my brain automatically fights the feelings of depersonalization or derealization with panic and then the OCD locks it in and its all i think about all day everyday and i feel like i cant be “in the moment” with whatever is going on.
KamilKamil
- Date posted
- 6y ago
Were in this together! Keep your head up and i guess all we can do is try to accept it for what it is. My fear is since this happened to me now i know how to kinda create the thought and im afraid that ill never forget it or it will never go away. Thats my biggest kind of “trigger”
Pippa12Pippa12
- Date posted
- 6y ago
This is me right now too I feel like I’m in my body and seeing everything I normally see but I’m not me ?nothing I do gives me the usual feeling I’d normally get and I just feel un human and in a bit of a daze, really puts me on edge sometimes, like i just want to run and running. When I start to feel “normal” I think about when I didn’t feel normal again. OCD is one f****d up condition but it’s good we know we are not alone and can support each other
chelsbingychelsbingy
- Date posted
- 6y ago
Yes I hear you, it’s like I’m trying to be “me” so much that I feel nothing like me
KamilKamil
- Date posted
- 6y ago
I get these like flashes of reality its so weird where its like over whelming sensation of holy shit im here this is happening whats the point where its literally like my sub concious mind becomes my main mind
chelsbingychelsbingy
- Date posted
- 6y ago
Yes that is me too and then my ocd switches to what if your a man in a women’s body. I feel like my brain is reaching for anything because I just don’t feel “like me” just feel such like a stranger to myself right now. I’m glad I’m not alone. I’m sorry you go through this too, it’s been so hard
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Secretidentity
- Date posted
- 21w ago
Does any one ever question if their ocd isn’t ocd?
That’s kinda my question. All my thoughts feel so realistic and so now I doubt if they are ocd and if I just can’t make my mind up about something and I’m using ocd as an excuse or something idc I feel like this post is word vomit.
aubreyvm
- Date posted
- 11w ago
TOCD
This is so extremely difficult, i’ve never experienced having thoughts of being a different gender. i’ve always been comfortable being a girl. i’ve always been a girly girl. this all started a couple months ago and it’s increasingly getting worse. i’ve had times where i didn’t like my body but i always thought i could just go to the gym and fix it, never did i think i wanted to be a man. ever since these thoughts started i hate looking at myself in the mirror, i hate looking at my body, i’m aware of my breasts all day everyday, i can’t look at pictures/ videos of myself. from the moment i wake up to the second i go to sleep i have these thoughts. i’m in a panic EVERYDAY. i don’t want to be trans but my thoughts are convincing me i do. i’ve never bat an eye when someone calls me a girl but now it’s like i’m aware of it which i hate. i hate that i’m having these thoughts & it’s convincing me that i want them & that i have to just come out and change. i want to be able to go back to being comfortable as a girl. this has left me feeling so hopeless and depressed, i can’t help but cry every day. has anyone else felt like their whole world was turned upside down?
kayla.
- Date posted
- 8w ago
derealization depersonalization.
i came out of it now i’m back in , what helps?
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