- Username
- chelsbingy
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Yes that is my main “OCD” right now. Ive had plenty of other subtypes that were hard but this one feels the most intrusive for me personally as its mental and existential so to me personally its harder because with other subtypes like Gay OCD or Health OCD i learned to accept that its just a thought and if it happens it happens life goes on. However i feel like my brain automatically fights the feelings of depersonalization or derealization with panic and then the OCD locks it in and its all i think about all day everyday and i feel like i cant be “in the moment” with whatever is going on.
Were in this together! Keep your head up and i guess all we can do is try to accept it for what it is. My fear is since this happened to me now i know how to kinda create the thought and im afraid that ill never forget it or it will never go away. Thats my biggest kind of “trigger”
This is me right now too I feel like I’m in my body and seeing everything I normally see but I’m not me ?nothing I do gives me the usual feeling I’d normally get and I just feel un human and in a bit of a daze, really puts me on edge sometimes, like i just want to run and running. When I start to feel “normal” I think about when I didn’t feel normal again. OCD is one f****d up condition but it’s good we know we are not alone and can support each other
Yes I hear you, it’s like I’m trying to be “me” so much that I feel nothing like me
I get these like flashes of reality its so weird where its like over whelming sensation of holy shit im here this is happening whats the point where its literally like my sub concious mind becomes my main mind
Yes that is me too and then my ocd switches to what if your a man in a women’s body. I feel like my brain is reaching for anything because I just don’t feel “like me” just feel such like a stranger to myself right now. I’m glad I’m not alone. I’m sorry you go through this too, it’s been so hard
tw: dp/dr sensations does anyone with depersonalization / derealization ever be in the middle of doing something literally anything and then an intense “whoosh” feeling of feeling unreal. and then suddenly you’re hyper aware of yourself and you’re surroundings but at the same time feel extremely separate from reality. for me, it feels like a really really intense high without wanting to be high. at its worst, i can’t even recognize my own family members and my childhood bedroom feels foreign. it’s difficult and triggering everytime, i’m trying to cope better with it now but it’s still challenging. can anyone else relate ?
Does anyone know what depersonalization is? I’ve been feeling very strange lately and Im worried that it’s more than depersonalization.
Please comment if you have experienced severe depersonalisation where you feel unsure or doubtful about specific events? I was driving with my girls from a long trip and the whole time I was pre occupied with thoughts and anxiety asking myself if I was really behind the wheel? Are my kids with me in the car right now? Have I already harmed my kids in any way while being totally oblivious to what happened? Then when we got home , the thoughts continued on with doubts like did we make it home or did I get into a car accident and because I’m feeling so depersonalised I couldn’t reassure my self that we’re home safe and nothing like that happened …lately my DP and ocd have gone to the next level where I don’t feel like im a person , this morning for example I felt like I was a box with all these contents inside it and this feeling makes me feel like im going lose my mind and end up with some psychotic illness where I’ll get dumped in some mental institution 🥲🥲🥲🥲
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