chelsbingy
- Date posted
- 6y
KamilKamil
- Date posted
- 6y
Yes that is my main “OCD” right now. Ive had plenty of other subtypes that were hard but this one feels the most intrusive for me personally as its mental and existential so to me personally its harder because with other subtypes like Gay OCD or Health OCD i learned to accept that its just a thought and if it happens it happens life goes on. However i feel like my brain automatically fights the feelings of depersonalization or derealization with panic and then the OCD locks it in and its all i think about all day everyday and i feel like i cant be “in the moment” with whatever is going on.
KamilKamil
- Date posted
- 6y
Were in this together! Keep your head up and i guess all we can do is try to accept it for what it is. My fear is since this happened to me now i know how to kinda create the thought and im afraid that ill never forget it or it will never go away. Thats my biggest kind of “trigger”
Pippa12Pippa12
- Date posted
- 6y
This is me right now too I feel like I’m in my body and seeing everything I normally see but I’m not me ?nothing I do gives me the usual feeling I’d normally get and I just feel un human and in a bit of a daze, really puts me on edge sometimes, like i just want to run and running. When I start to feel “normal” I think about when I didn’t feel normal again. OCD is one f****d up condition but it’s good we know we are not alone and can support each other
chelsbingychelsbingy
- Date posted
- 6y
Yes I hear you, it’s like I’m trying to be “me” so much that I feel nothing like me
KamilKamil
- Date posted
- 6y
I get these like flashes of reality its so weird where its like over whelming sensation of holy shit im here this is happening whats the point where its literally like my sub concious mind becomes my main mind
chelsbingychelsbingy
- Date posted
- 6y
Yes that is me too and then my ocd switches to what if your a man in a women’s body. I feel like my brain is reaching for anything because I just don’t feel “like me” just feel such like a stranger to myself right now. I’m glad I’m not alone. I’m sorry you go through this too, it’s been so hard
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nevieocal
- Date posted
- 16w
Can someone please help me?
I think when people are saying OCD is egodystonic is really triggering me and I was just wondering if this has happened to anyone else? I’m going through a really bad relapse and right now I’m trying to figure out if my thoughts are truly egodystonic, like I how do I know I won’t act on them, how can I trust my emotions and everything. I feel really confused and I feel like I don’t know who I am anymore or how I carry on with life because it’s so long and I’m so unsure of everything that’s going on in my head. Like how do I know that this is OCD and true desires/urges. I’m so confused.
Mariabae
- Date posted
- 7w
i need help, i dont know what is happening
I believe I have ROCD — at least, that’s what many people here have told me based on what I’ve shared — and I really need help, because I feel like I’m falling apart. I don’t know what I feel anymore. I don’t know what’s real. My thoughts come as loud, cold statements — not questions. They say things like: “Nothing is the same.” “You don’t love him.” “You’re just staying because you’re used to him.” And even though I know I’m supposed to let the thoughts pass and not engage with them — I can’t. I get stuck in them. I try to find answers, I ruminate, I check, I cry, I panic. Everyone says “love isn’t just a feeling” — and I know that. But… I still want to feel something. I want to feel warmth, or connection, or even just peace. It’s been so long since I felt anything like that. Now everything just feels empty or terrifying or cold. My brain only gives me negative interpretations. No memory brings me comfort anymore. Nothing feels like it used to. And the worst part is — it all feels true. Sometimes I think: “What if I’m just denying the truth?” “What if I’ve finally realized that I don’t love him, and I just don’t want to admit it?” This feels like the worst version of myself. I’m so confused and scared and tired. Even therapy didn’t help — my therapist said things that made it worse, and now I don’t know who or what to believe anymore. I just want help. I want to know how to face ROCD — if that’s what this really is. I want to believe I can feel love again. I don’t want to lose myself in this forever. Has anyone else felt like this? How did you start to get better? i cant even remember past good memories with him, my head tells me that i didnt love him and i was just “excited “ to have someone. We have 2 years together and i have been dealing with this for a year and a half.
Fabi
- Date posted
- 6w
Do you ever feel like you’re dying?
I have existential ocd and dpdr and my mind keeps telling me I’m dying or will die. Is dpdr even manageable?
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