Intruder

Everytime I feel good for some days (or weeks or months if I'm lucky enough) in a row, without obsessions or harmful intrusive thoughts, I always start thinking that I am fine, that I'm healed, that I'm never going to have them again because I have the control. Specially now that I have a lot more information about the disorder. I doubt if I actually have OCD or if it they were just isolated episodes. I even feel guilty that I have considered having OCD when there are other people feeling terrible all the time, while I have periods in which I feel okay. I feel like an intruder. Does someone relate? Any thoughts?

Username: M. A.

Date posted: 216d ago

I relate to that! I only ever feel bad for a couple months at a time… It’s actually kept me from seeking professional help. I have my first therapy session on Thursday. I’m not in a position to offer advice, but do you know that you’re not alone and feeling that way.

Username: kathlaya

Date posted: 216d ago

It also kept me from seeking professional help at the beginning, until at some point I felt like I could not go on and I did it. But I quit way too early, in the moment I started feeling a bit better. And again, those thoughts: "This is over. I don't have OCD". Until some months after, they came back a lot worse... Now I'm back in theraphy and determined to work on this. But the reality is that (probably because of OCD, I know...) I can't help doubting if I actually have it or not all the time.