Intruder

Everytime I feel good for some days (or weeks or months if I'm lucky enough) in a row, without obsessions or harmful intrusive thoughts, I always start thinking that I am fine, that I'm healed, that I'm never going to have them again because I have the control. Specially now that I have a lot more information about the disorder. I doubt if I actually have OCD or if it they were just isolated episodes. I even feel guilty that I have considered having OCD when there are other people feeling terrible all the time, while I have periods in which I feel okay. I feel like an intruder. Does someone relate? Any thoughts?

M. A.

22d ago

I relate to that! I only ever feel bad for a couple months at a time… It’s actually kept me from seeking professional help. I have my first therapy session on Thursday. I’m not in a position to offer advice, but do you know that you’re not alone and feeling that way.

kathlaya

22d ago

It also kept me from seeking professional help at the beginning, until at some point I felt like I could not go on and I did it. But I quit way too early, in the moment I started feeling a bit better. And again, those thoughts: "This is over. I don't have OCD". Until some months after, they came back a lot worse... Now I'm back in theraphy and determined to work on this. But the reality is that (probably because of OCD, I know...) I can't help doubting if I actually have it or not all the time.

Songbird27

22d ago

I’m starting therapy soon specifically ERP, I thought I didn’t need it for years but now it’s getting severe. I’ve always been afraid to work on it and just relied on reassuring myself constantly just to get temporary relief but I’m too exhausted I’m ready to work on this fully

kathlaya

22d ago

I send you the best wishes for your process

Songbird27

22d ago

Thank you, you too💜