Intruder

Everytime I feel good for some days (or weeks or months if I'm lucky enough) in a row, without obsessions or harmful intrusive thoughts, I always start thinking that I am fine, that I'm healed, that I'm never going to have them again because I have the control. Specially now that I have a lot more information about the disorder. I doubt if I actually have OCD or if it they were just isolated episodes. I even feel guilty that I have considered having OCD when there are other people feeling terrible all the time, while I have periods in which I feel okay. I feel like an intruder. Does someone relate? Any thoughts?

M. A.

Date posted: 3y

I relate to that! I only ever feel bad for a couple months at a time… It’s actually kept me from seeking professional help. I have my first therapy session on Thursday. I’m not in a position to offer advice, but do you know that you’re not alone and feeling that way.

kathlaya

Date posted: 3y

It also kept me from seeking professional help at the beginning, until at some point I felt like I could not go on and I did it. But I quit way too early, in the moment I started feeling a bit better. And again, those thoughts: "This is over. I don't have OCD". Until some months after, they came back a lot worse... Now I'm back in theraphy and determined to work on this. But the reality is that (probably because of OCD, I know...) I can't help doubting if I actually have it or not all the time.

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Date posted: 3y

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kathlaya

Date posted: 3y

I send you the best wishes for your process

Mika05

Date posted: 23w

Worried about not being anxious?

These past few days I was fine. Minimal intrusive thoughts ,no anxiety etc(to add I'm on medication so maybe it's starting to work although it barely is 2 weeks) and today I got a sudden wave of anxiety and it started latching on some thoughts like" what if I'm in denial and I wanna break up with my bf? And what if erp doesn't work for me because I actually wanna break up with my bf?" But they didn't really stay long usually those thoughts would make me spiral for days or so, now they lasted for some hours. And now I'm trying to trigger myself into being anxious again because if I don't it means I don't have ocd and if I don't have ocd it means I don't love my bf and if I don't love my bf it means I have to break up. Idk if it makes sense but the lack of anxiety makes me wonder if I actually have ocd or not.

Pushingpissed

Date posted: 19w

Feeling “normal” again

Anyone else feel that when they aren’t experiencing a theme that their ocd is almost non existent. It almost makes me feel like I’ve been faking it, and also makes me feel ridiculous for obsessing over things. I feel sorry for myself :/ I know that my themes are valid and felt very real in the moment, but after I “get over” them I just can’t believe that I was obsessing over something that either wasn’t true or didn’t apply to me. I would also like to know how to prevent themes from reoccurring. Health, religion and existential OCD themes tend to take turns throughout my life, I just didn’t know that was it ocd. Trying to break the cycle.

spelamarela

Date posted: 16w

Is this happening to you?

Does anyone else ever feel like they don’t feel “bad enough” to have OCD, or that they don’t feel “the right way” for it? Or like they’re just saying they have OCD as an excuse? Because i was so much better for like 3 weeks now and now im on my period and i started doubting again. So because of that im scared that i was feeling to good and that my fear is actually true.

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