I’m starting to wonder if my attraction to my boyfriend has always been quite low but I never wanted to accept it because he’s the type of person I’d like to marry. Almost like I felt as though I SHOULD like him because he was so nice. Maybe that’s why I experienced anxiety. Maybe I do need to break up with him and I’m simply being selfish.
You are not alone. Good luck.
Chances are if it's causing you that much fear its not true, you seem to love him. A lot of the time those with OCD start to fear what they love
I feel like I love him but I’m not that attracted which is weird. I feel calm saying that but I don’t know if that’s just my mind being deceptive, it’s like I know it’s the truth
@EM77 Yeah that's what ocd does, I'm sure you are attracted to him. People with OCD will often feel like that like they "know their intrusive thoughts are the truth and they should give into them" when in fact they are the opposite of the truth