- Date posted
- 3y
Fear of the mark of the beast
sometimes I feel that I’ve gotten something called the mark of the beast, which is something that if you have, then you will go to hell no matter what. I know that it says in the Bible that the mark will only happen after the rapture, but I have fears that you can get it in other ways. I don’t believe in one religion, and I am from an atheist family. These situations where i think i have the mark of the beast are extremely damaging for my mental health. My only way to get relief in these situations is to disprove what my ocd is saying by proving how unfair the way I supposedly got the mark of the beast would be. but I fear I’ll get into a situation I can’t disprove. If that happens, things could get bad for my mental health. I recently had a dream where people offered me satanic goods, and I refused them. I also had someone ask me a favor, and in order to accept, I had to put my hand on a piece of stone, which looked like it would give me the mark of the beast. I decided to kick the stone away, but I noticed that the bottom of the stone had the mark of the beast on it as well. That really scared me, And then after that, I had another dream where I almost pushed more satanic goods away from me, but then I thought, what if touching these goods will give me the mark of the beast? So, I decided to walk away from them instead. Then, I realized, I had satanic items in my pockets, and inside of holsters. The clothes I was wearing looked satanic as well. As soon as I woke up, I prayed to god about the situation, but I felt like i was praying to him wrong, but I decided to ignore it because I thought it was my ocd. But then, i closed my eyes for a second, and saw myself with the mark of the beast, i don’t know if I fell asleep and I was in the dream again for a split second, or if my ocd was making me see things, which is something it can do. anyways, this situation really scared me, but I was really stressed already, so I ignored it. However, out of nowhere, I smelled one of my favorite smells, lego. That made me think about what I was risking by not praying. I didn’t want to Risk going to hell and not being able to experience things I love. Maybe god would punish me for being too lazy to pray immediately? Anyways, I decided to tell god that no matter what, I did not want the mark of the beast, which I have done a million times, but whenever I do it, I always feel I said something wrong, and I have to apologize for my sins and try again. Anyways, after that, I had to go somewhere in the passengers seat of a car. A family member was driving the car, and they know I have problems with praying, so they would stop me. I then thought that I could pray by just thinking of what I want to say to god, without putting my hands together or actually speaking, but it still felt like i did something wrong, but it made me feel a tiny bit better. but then the vision/ split second dream came back, but this time, it reminded me of this creepy pasta I heard once, which has nothing to do with the mark of the beast, but still scared me. I feel too uncomfortable to mention how it reminded me of the creepy pasta. I decided to do the praying without actually speaking again, and it still didn’t feel right.