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The ocd is expressing it's fears. You are not your thoughts and your thoughts are not you. A response by the body in the groin area is normal. The feeling is NOT a turn on it is sexual anxiety. Your ocd is only a way for your mind to tell you there's something wrong about a situation because it triggers something that may be in the subconscious. Memories of abuse usually. Most sexual ocd sufferers were sexually abused and it is a fear of becoming an abuser or like an abuser. Know that abusers don't get upset over these things. They enjoy sexual turn ons and want to explore them. Theres no anxiety. Ocd sufferers experience so much anxiety just over the obsession in the mind or the sexual anxiety that they are totally overwhelmed or depressed or worse. Big difference. You are not your thoughts. Separate yourself from your mind. Your mind needs to heal from some kind of traumas but you are not your mind. You can know that these thoughts are normal for sexual ocd.
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Thanks. I needed this
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Jadedrops you aren’t alone! I’ve been feeling convinced all week. It’s scary when it becomes that way. How’re you feeling now? And also, I have also had the same thing with incest. Well, not in terms of thoughts, but I have had some incest themed dreams when all of this started occurring.
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It’s okay to think someone is attractive who is 16. They can physically look like adults. It’s just your ocd telling you something is wrong. Noticing attractiveness is totally normal and fine.
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@figuringitallout not any better to be honest. I keep thinking about things I’ve done in the past that I regret, and it’s convincing me my fears were true and that I’ve always been this type of person.
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@jadedrops @figuringitallout i've also been down that road, a couple of days ago i realized my first type of ocd was incest ocd, worrying is be attracted to my brother or sister.... fortunately that only lasted a couple weeks. pocd has not been as kind :/ also @jadedrops i know how you feel with the regretting things in your past, this is going to sound SO ridiculous, but i used to read one direction fanfic when i was younger (pls don't judge me lol) and there were some questionable age differences in some of them. i was underage myself and didn't really pay attention to that but now i worry that that was a "sign" i'm truly bad. i'm also worried that i'll see pictures of the one direction guys when they were younger (like 16/17) and since i had such huge crushes on them i'm worried i'll still think their younger selves are super attractive. stupid i know but it's the truth
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@T. Idk sometimes I see a really attractive video game character but then I find out they’re like 16 and I feel weird for even being attracted to them even though I’m 18 so now I get thoughts that tell me I’m a weirdo who likes minors. People on tumblr (I know tumblr is the last place for people like me to be on) tell you that you’re a pedo or pedo sympathizer for not caring if someone has a crush on a fictional 16 year old.
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@jadedrops i'm also on tumblr which i know is terrible but it's like the only social media i have and i know exactly how black and white peoples ideas are on there
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- 23w
I feel like a really terrible person right now, I keep replaying this, and no matter what I can’t remember what happened, it’s like my brain is purposely not letting me think about it. Without wasting any more time, I’ll get into it. Basically, I was at Walmart, and looking at cards with My Dad, I saw anime ones, took pictures of them for my sister, even ones that were anime kids, because I did my best to ignore it, so I looked at a Hunter x Hunter card, I stared at the black haired kid, being all like “ I’m glad I’m not having any thoughts about this, I’m glad I’m having normal thoughts and not thinking anything” I felt happy, then as soon as I looked at killua (white haired kid), everything collapsed. I don’t know what happened, my brain won’t let me remember. But I’ll give bits and pieces. I think that I had false attraction, and something in my head, said “oh, I wouldn’t mind being attracted.” “He is attractive, and I’m attracted to him.” “I remember a girl thinking he is attractive and he is” “ It’s not wrong to be attracted” “ I don’t care about his age” .. something along the lines of that, and now I’m panicking super hard, because I’m worried if I said those things, I feel like I ruined my life that I’m a pe//do and deserve nothing, idk what to do, I feel terrible… I remember when I was having the intrusive thoughts, I was panicking and was worrying, but it kept playing out, and I kept hearing things talk, it was drawn out too long, that now I feel convinced that I was saying those things, I tested it too, and I can confirm that I didn’t say that, but why am I still not convinced? I know I wouldn’t say those things, I was hoping the complete opposite would happen. My brain kept making me feel like it wasn’t wrong and it was okay. Maybe that’s why I’m so convinced I did that. I’m just spiraling super bad right now, I don’t know what to do or what to think, I don’t know if I said that or not… even if I did test it, I genuinely just feel like I said it, and I wanted it, because I still feel uncertain, I still feel like I said it, part of me just wants to be like oh I did and so I can move on, not because I agree with it, I just don’t know what else to do… I’m really scared.
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- 15w
Hi I just have a few questions! (Im 14 btw) Okay so basically I’m really worried I’ll become a pedo/I already am and I don’t know it yet. I’m also really scared if I SA someone, even tho I don’t want to and I’d never do something like that but I feel like this part of me is saying that I will and it’s really scaring me. I feel so alone and I’m so scared I’m a bad person on the inside and this isn’t ocd and I’m gonna unleash hell on this earth I’m so scared. I’ll get a thought like if I’m walking past someone random it will be like “What if you sa them?” And it scares me so bad I feel horrible for thinking that. Is this apart of it? I feel like I’m always fixated on the topic of sa to check if I would do something like that, I don’t know anymore I just feel like a bad person (btw I have not done anything like that to anyone!)
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- 13w
I don’t know if my hormones are extra wild this month or what, but I have been having so many POCD thoughts lately. It feels like I enjoy them in the moment, and then a few seconds later, I get this tiny flicker of *wait I don’t think I actually want to enjoy that.* It’s scaring me a lot. I was watching adult videos for the first time in about a year, since I had been avoiding them because of my OCD. I know they are not good for anyone, but I felt like i could (ironically it felt like a tiny win that my OCD had calmed down enough). But while watching, I had like 3 separate POCD thoughts. And it felt like I liked them. Like genuinely *liked* them. I don’t know if maybe my body was mixing up physical pleasure and mental pleasure, and then my brain inserted those not okay thoughts into the situation, which got tangled up with the pleasure responses I felt mentally and physically. It is all really confusing. I just feel so scared. I know OCD thoughts are supposed to feel real, and that once you get desensitized to the anxiety, they lose their power. But this feels like I am *actually enjoying* the thoughts, and that makes me want to cry. I’m scared that I actually like these thoughts when I’m really aroused :( Please help.
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