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The ocd is expressing it's fears. You are not your thoughts and your thoughts are not you. A response by the body in the groin area is normal. The feeling is NOT a turn on it is sexual anxiety. Your ocd is only a way for your mind to tell you there's something wrong about a situation because it triggers something that may be in the subconscious. Memories of abuse usually. Most sexual ocd sufferers were sexually abused and it is a fear of becoming an abuser or like an abuser. Know that abusers don't get upset over these things. They enjoy sexual turn ons and want to explore them. Theres no anxiety. Ocd sufferers experience so much anxiety just over the obsession in the mind or the sexual anxiety that they are totally overwhelmed or depressed or worse. Big difference. You are not your thoughts. Separate yourself from your mind. Your mind needs to heal from some kind of traumas but you are not your mind. You can know that these thoughts are normal for sexual ocd.
Thanks. I needed this
Jadedrops you aren’t alone! I’ve been feeling convinced all week. It’s scary when it becomes that way. How’re you feeling now? And also, I have also had the same thing with incest. Well, not in terms of thoughts, but I have had some incest themed dreams when all of this started occurring.
It’s okay to think someone is attractive who is 16. They can physically look like adults. It’s just your ocd telling you something is wrong. Noticing attractiveness is totally normal and fine.
@figuringitallout not any better to be honest. I keep thinking about things I’ve done in the past that I regret, and it’s convincing me my fears were true and that I’ve always been this type of person.
@jadedrops @figuringitallout i've also been down that road, a couple of days ago i realized my first type of ocd was incest ocd, worrying is be attracted to my brother or sister.... fortunately that only lasted a couple weeks. pocd has not been as kind :/ also @jadedrops i know how you feel with the regretting things in your past, this is going to sound SO ridiculous, but i used to read one direction fanfic when i was younger (pls don't judge me lol) and there were some questionable age differences in some of them. i was underage myself and didn't really pay attention to that but now i worry that that was a "sign" i'm truly bad. i'm also worried that i'll see pictures of the one direction guys when they were younger (like 16/17) and since i had such huge crushes on them i'm worried i'll still think their younger selves are super attractive. stupid i know but it's the truth
@T. Idk sometimes I see a really attractive video game character but then I find out they’re like 16 and I feel weird for even being attracted to them even though I’m 18 so now I get thoughts that tell me I’m a weirdo who likes minors. People on tumblr (I know tumblr is the last place for people like me to be on) tell you that you’re a pedo or pedo sympathizer for not caring if someone has a crush on a fictional 16 year old.
@jadedrops i'm also on tumblr which i know is terrible but it's like the only social media i have and i know exactly how black and white peoples ideas are on there
Can POCD make you feel like you don’t know why sexually abusing children is wrong, just that you’re afraid of becoming a child abuser for whatever reason? I’m constantly struggling to figure out why pedophilia doesn’t make me disgusted or angry enough. I feel like I’m actually a pedophile who doesn’t know it yet or is in denial. I know I shouldn’t ruminate but I feel like there’s some truth to the thing I’m constantly obsessing over.
(tw: pocd) ive spent the whole morning obsessing about accidentally becoming okay with the content of my intrusions that now ive stopped feeling anything when i think about my obsession. it's like. i know pedophilia is wrong. there's literally no reason it's not wrong. i also know know that im not a pedophile (i can't explain how...i just feel certain.) but now ive like,, accidentally condoned the content of my intrusive thoughts? like some part of my head has gone all philosophical and is going "yeah you aren't attracted to kids, but you used to masturbate when you were a child, and studies prove that everyone has, so why is the idea of kids being sexual bad?" (but obviously it is!! i know that!!!) is that also an intrusive thought? it's not something i personally want to believe, although i almost don't feel enough anxiety to convince myself i don't. so now im like intellectually freaking out, almost like this is my ocds last ditch attempt to throw me back into it
POCD sufferers: does anyone else have thoughts that they agree with pedophelia? My brain is telling me that pedophiles can’t help who they’re attracted to, so we should just allow them to be with who they want to be with? It’s horrible. And I feel like if I allow these thoughts that I’m going to start believing them. Someone please help, my anxiety is through the roof.
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