Pocd is really eating at me right now. I’m getting more and more convinced that I’m actually a pedophile. I’m not even sure if I’m having intrusive thoughts or if I’m suppressing fantasies. There’s a lot of moral debates going on in my mind and it’s convincing me that I also like bestiality, incest, etc.

The ocd is expressing it's fears. You are not your thoughts and your thoughts are not you. A response by the body in the groin area is normal. The feeling is NOT a turn on it is sexual anxiety. Your ocd is only a way for your mind to tell you there's something wrong about a situation because it triggers something that may be in the subconscious. Memories of abuse usually. Most sexual ocd sufferers were sexually abused and it is a fear of becoming an abuser or like an abuser. Know that abusers don't get upset over these things. They enjoy sexual turn ons and want to explore them. Theres no anxiety. Ocd sufferers experience so much anxiety just over the obsession in the mind or the sexual anxiety that they are totally overwhelmed or depressed or worse. Big difference. You are not your thoughts. Separate yourself from your mind. Your mind needs to heal from some kind of traumas but you are not your mind. You can know that these thoughts are normal for sexual ocd.

Thanks. I needed this

Jadedrops you aren’t alone! I’ve been feeling convinced all week. It’s scary when it becomes that way. How’re you feeling now? And also, I have also had the same thing with incest. Well, not in terms of thoughts, but I have had some incest themed dreams when all of this started occurring.

It’s okay to think someone is attractive who is 16. They can physically look like adults. It’s just your ocd telling you something is wrong. Noticing attractiveness is totally normal and fine.

@figuringitallout not any better to be honest. I keep thinking about things I’ve done in the past that I regret, and it’s convincing me my fears were true and that I’ve always been this type of person.

@jadedrops @figuringitallout i've also been down that road, a couple of days ago i realized my first type of ocd was incest ocd, worrying is be attracted to my brother or sister.... fortunately that only lasted a couple weeks. pocd has not been as kind :/ also @jadedrops i know how you feel with the regretting things in your past, this is going to sound SO ridiculous, but i used to read one direction fanfic when i was younger (pls don't judge me lol) and there were some questionable age differences in some of them. i was underage myself and didn't really pay attention to that but now i worry that that was a "sign" i'm truly bad. i'm also worried that i'll see pictures of the one direction guys when they were younger (like 16/17) and since i had such huge crushes on them i'm worried i'll still think their younger selves are super attractive. stupid i know but it's the truth

@T. Idk sometimes I see a really attractive video game character but then I find out they’re like 16 and I feel weird for even being attracted to them even though I’m 18 so now I get thoughts that tell me I’m a weirdo who likes minors. People on tumblr (I know tumblr is the last place for people like me to be on) tell you that you’re a pedo or pedo sympathizer for not caring if someone has a crush on a fictional 16 year old.

@jadedrops i'm also on tumblr which i know is terrible but it's like the only social media i have and i know exactly how black and white peoples ideas are on there