When I tell myself I don’t love my partner it doesn’t give me relief… I’ve been worried for a long time that it has been me this entire time…. I really had moments where I knew I love him and those moments weren’t too long ago… when I don’t obsess or search for feelings I am great! But when I do I am miserable and it causes an argument between me and my partner. I just wanna be happy with who I am again and not constantly miserable.. whenever I hunk about breaking up I cry…… do I just not wanna face facts that my relationship is over… or did I seriously convince myself I don’t love him due to my obsessive behavior… 😞

Relationship OCD

gingercoooer...

Date posted: 3y

I get how you are feeling because I am currently like this with my boyfriend. Yestoday I was crying my eyes out and I was freaking out because we where talking about how I felt and he was talking to me like he’s the issues. Because I was questioning whether I love him, and if I should break up with him. Which I cried and was almost shouting that I don’t wanna be without him, I can’t live without him. I had a pain like I was on fire in my chest because breaking up with him is not what I want. This is when I found this and found out about ROCD. Which completely made sense to me and actually answer question. Me and my partner want to make me feel better and want to work on my these issues. Which is one of the think I live about him and sometimes it these small things you need to remember. Could you imagen you life without him in a serious note. Not waking up next to him and not seeing him or ever speaking to him ?

7710 ❤️

Date posted: 3y

No that’s what’s making this so upsetting. I can’t imagine my life without him, or waking up without him. We’ve been together for 11 1/2 years now 12 in July. We’ve been having some issues that I know ROCD has magnified greatly! We want to work on theses issues and bc of some of our talks he’s been making steps to change and I see he is trying. I know I need to change to but I am scared if I do I won’t want him anymore… 😢 Our last argument I cried bc I told him bc of mental health issues we’ve been snapping at each other randomly. In all honesty just in this first year alone this is the most we’ve argued in 11 1/2 years. But like I said. No I can’t imagine a life where he is no longer with me or waking up next to me. Or how stupid he acts when he plays his video games. XD

gingercoooer...

Date posted: 3y

@7710 ❤️ I completely understand that, I’ve been noticing myself suffering after I had a mental break down back in March last year. And these thought of mine have been going on for a year. Me and my partner are so sick of it and so done with me being like time. It’s soooo hard soooooo sooooo hard. It feels never ending. I find mine I can just be not thinking of anything and suddenly out of no where it fills that silence.

7710 ❤️

Date posted: 3y

@gingercoooer1209 It’s like no matter how hard I try to ignore or accept how I’m feeling just makes it worse… I don’t wanna break up.. it’s like I know my answer! I hate it… 😢 I don’t like that I feel this way… I don’t wanna know or accept this if it is my truth… 😞 I can’t even tell if what I am going thru is even ROCD anymore…

gingercoooer...

Date posted: 3y

@7710 ❤️ I get that. But like you said you know your answer you don’t wanna break up. That my answer as well but then it comes into is the ROCD playing into reality and making it feel real

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