I woke up right now feeling calm and not anxious about my real event OCD… I was feeling fine at first, but now I’m scared that this calm feeling means that I’m in denial… I’m still getting intrusive POCD and HOCD thoughts and doing compulsions to rid of them, but I’m scared that not feeling anxious about my real event OCD means I’m in denial of my POCD or something 😭😭😭
Okay to reply to your previous comment, I struggle with real event OCD as well. The thing that's been helping me the most is "delaying" my compulsions. Seriously, don't give in to those thoughts, please. Sit with the guilt, as hard as it sounds. When you can, tell the OCD that you'll "deal with it later" and keep doing that. Any reassurance I tell you isn't going to help you.. but I will tell you this. Your past does NOT define you & it doesn't have to be apart of you !!!!!
Your name honestly suits you a lot! Thank you so much 😭😭😭
some great advice in this thread, some i’ll be using for myself as well! i struggle with real event ocd and pocd too, it sucks but as i saw mentioned earlier delaying the compulsions has been super helpful for me. ocd sucks because as soon as we don’t feel anxious we get anxious about not feeling anxious, hang in there :) also love your username and profile pic, im a huge vince staples fan!
I'm sorry you're still dealing with this at this point ):!! What you're experiencing can also be a theme on itself. Remember, if you feel the need to "solve" whatever is on your mind at this instant, then it's most likely OCD. And you know exactly what to do with OCD thoughts. Face them head on. Accept it, tell those thoughts, "maybe, maybe not" or "that's probably true." (EVEN THOUGH IT'S NOT, THIS IS JUST SO YOUR BRAIN CAN STOP BRINGING IT UP). Best of luck, you got this ! x
I don’t know what to do about it when it’s real event OCD you know? I’ve called my mom late into the night and early in the morning asking for reassurance and she reassures me but I still get intrusive thoughts about being a P or a chomo… 😭😭😭 the event is personal so I’m not going to talk about it but I don’t know what to do…
I was 13 when the events happened and now I’m 20…
I can’t see your comments.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6inywCsMz3M Please watch this everytime you're having an OCD attack it should help x
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_hRqhdVMfyc & this should help too, incase you have days where you're worried it's not actually OCD
how about now?
I can see this one, but not the previous two
Haha, thank you 😊♥️!! Yea, of course 🥺 I know exactly what you're going through and it seriously sucks, but no amount of self-shaming and guilt is going to change the past, yknow? So you've got to get on with your life!! If a loved one of yours was in your shoes, you would want them to move on too, right? Even if their mistake was unforgivable, at some point they've got to learn and move on. Life goes on!! Be okay with uncertainty. Allow yourself permission to move on. I know you might feel like you don't deserve to move on, but thats part of the OCD. Accept it, and soon the OCD will leave like an uninvited guest. Sorry this was long btw!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2eMlS7HSkso&t=14 On days where you have nobody to talk to about this, watch this video on real event ocd, this woman has seriously helped me a lot and you've seriously got nothing to lose. happy i could help you somehow x
So I was doing good for about 5 months. I was going to therapy, practicing the skills, and for about the past month, I fell into a depression funk. The last week, however, has been a week of really loud OCD. I am in a constant state of anxiety and find myself doing compulsions. I'm wondering if anyone has experienced what I'm about to describe. I'm considering taking myself to the hospital, but my little boy's birthday party is this weekend and I don't want to miss it: I keep having this bad feeling like I actually want to do the bad things in my mind. I know OCD intrusive thoughts can tell you "I want to" but this just seems different - maybe it's OCD trying to come at me a new way. It's not like thoughts telling me "I want" it's like even when I tell myself I don't want to do the bad stuff, there's this nagging feeling telling me I really want to. I'm scared.
I know I am going a bit cuckoo because my period is coming up, but lately it feels like every intrusive thought I have, I *like* it. Like I genuinely feel like I like it, and then I immediately panic because I start checking. Mentally, emotionally, whatever it is. And I know that is a compulsion. I *know* that. But it feels so real that I cannot stop myself. Every single time I check, it still feels like I like the thought, and it is driving me absolutely insane. It is especially the POCD thoughts. They feel so real. I feel like something is going on mentally, like some kind of confusion or glitch, because I swear I was not like this before. I would have intrusive thoughts, and they would feel real, but not *this* real. And I do not even know if this is normal. I know OCD is **supposed** to feel convincing. That is the whole thing. But I have never experienced it to this extreme. I have never gotten the same thought so many times and still felt like, “Oh my God, I did enjoy it,” even after checking a million times. It is like no matter how many times I check, it feels like I liked it. Especially during intimacy :( and it is making me lose it. Then I start thinking, “Well, I am in distress, so maybe that is proof it is not actually me.” But right after, I am like, “What if I am only panicking because I care about what society thinks and not because I actually have morals?” And then I spiral again, wondering if maybe I just care about how I am seen rather than who I am. I am panicking so much no today. I had to take my Xanax today for the first time in two months, and I needed three separate doses. I really need some support right now.
Anyone else just have days where they feel more calm and don’t have as many intrusive thoughts? But then later at night time it just comes back so you only had relief even for a little bit 😞😞 I feel like even when I’m not having my OCD send me intrusive thoughts, I always have a feeling in my stomach that something is wrong/off or a sense of doom. I always just feel on edge and anxious as if my mind is always preparing itself for the next horrifying intrusive thought to torment me with ugh 🫠
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