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- 3y
Talked to my bf about my ocd
So I tried to explain ocd to my boyfriend and the confessions. And he started to question me if there was anything I did that I haven’t told him. I told him no. Which is a lie. But I didn’t wanna bring up all the 15 fucking lies my ocd is telling me to tell him. He didn’t really understand it. He knows I’m struggling with my mental health but I wanted to explain to him that I can’t confess to him because it won’t help. And he said have u done anything in this relationship or even 3 years ago? I was like no! He was like there’s ur answer. But I feel like there is something ur not telling me. And he’s right. I’m not telling him any of it. It’ll cause more stuff, he just didn’t get it & now I feel worse. I feel better talking to him about it but he just didn’t understand it. I know he tried to but I’m stressing out cuz I said I wouldn’t lie again and I did. I coulda told him right there “yes I slept with ur friend 3 times not 1. I kissed ur other friend 3 years ago.” Like so much. But I don’t wanna tell him. He doesn’t need to know this stuff. This is so fucking unfair. I feel some relief cuz I confessed the messages I saw between him & his friend & him snap chatting a girl I dislike a year ago. But I didn’t tell him about the other 2 things that seem big to me. Idk. I’m freaking out.