- Date posted
- 3y
Failure
I just asked my husband to come home from work because I was having scary thoughts, I immediately started thinking I was about to lose control and go crazy, and it terrified the hell outta me, I started trying to think of what I could do to escape that feeling, who I could or would call if I were to lose control to help me, I went into a full blown panic attack and my heart was racing, I was shaking, sweating, thoughts were overtaking me, and I was scared to death! I told my husband I felt sick, and to please come home, but I’m not sick I have crazy thoughts that I’m scared to be alone with! I am a complete fking failure, why and I’m sick of living this way! Why must this be so debilitating and fkd up?! What did I do to deserve this?! I’m growing weaker, how much longer can I do this? 😢