Past

Sending you strength and hope. I’m in a very anxious state right now

How long have you been suffering?

@OCD33 For about almost a year. But in the beginning it was very mild but it has been very bad and extreme for the past 6 months

I’m so sorry you are suffering too

And it’s triggering when people are like “remember who you were before this thought” well this theme has been around since I was a kid so nothing is clear.

@OCD33 I get so triggered hearing that because I’m like I can’t even remember who I was. I feel like I’ve completely lost myself and have no idea who iam

@OCD33 I have the same thing that’s going on with me that’s one of the main things that I have but it doesn’t matter what you did in the past it just matters what you like now because everyone has did homosexual things in the past and their childhood it’s completely normal

@OCD33 OMG THIS IS THE EXACT SAME FOR ME!!!!!!!!! do u wanna talk

@ocdanonymous! Thank you so much for commenting!! It makes me feel much less alone!! I thought I was the only one who felt this way!!

@ocdanonymous! OKAY!! we are the same!! And then things that I did when I was young young are like proof and because I had the thoughts so young it’s like what’s real 😩 and what’s my ocd. I didn’t know it was ocd up until like 3 years ago… so all this time I was like omg this is real and I hate it

@ocdanonymous! Yes!! And when it came on strong again three years ago after my harm ocd it was like debilitating. Like this “theme” has always been around but I didn’t know it was ocd. But then I got hospitalized for harm ocd (didn’t even know ocd was this) this theme came back in full force to the point where I wasn’t eating, sleeping, out of mind. Now it’s just like always there. But I can at least function. But it’s so frustrating and exhausting

@OCD33 i am so so sorry ..

@OCD33 i feel that completely

@ocdanonymous! Have you done erp?!

@OCD33 a bit but actually my therapist (not nocd one) reccomended instead of erp i focus on cbt mindfulness. wbu

@ocdanonymous! How’s that going? I’ve done erp twice. It’s a lot. And I fully can never do the response prevention part because I’ll ruminate and try to reassure myself.

@OCD33 and to label thoughts as thoughts

@ocdanonymous! I’m so sorry you are struggling… it feels dangerous to just not do anything about it. I’m like constantly trying to solve this question that I’ll never get an answer to. But if it gives hope… I’m getting married in 3 months so don’t ever let ocd win.. go towards your values and what you want. Have you thought about getting an ocd specialist?

@OCD33 my therapist is trained but i may need one more familiar w soocd?? also i am so proud of you! that is so so so beautiful ✨🦋 no doubt you will be free of ocds grip one day

@OCD33 I feel this.. each someone say that I’m like I can’t relate with them because I have this from so long ago that I can go back to when this started .. how are you doing today?

@OCD33 🤦🏽‍♂️🤦🏽‍♂️🤦🏽‍♂️ ouchhh