I read someone’s post on here that really triggered me and sent me into a spiral. It feels so real. It looks like the post has been deleted but I really need to stop coming on here. Just needing some positive vibes.
Yea I saw that too! It haunts me and sent me down a huge spiral 😭 now my mind is like “oh you’re just like that post”
@Anonymous4868 I know that scares me too cuz my mind goes “what if you know deep down but you’re unaware” and I can’t handle that 😭
@Anonymous4868 You’re not alone, same and its terrifying.
@Anonymous4868 I totally relate, and I too have had these thoughts for what seems like my entire life which just adds fuel to my ocd. It seems endless.
I saw the same thing about 7 hours ago and it disturbs me too much
And now like why was it deleted?
I get you, when it gets extra bad, everything and I literally mean everything triggers me. Things that have 0 to do with this theme at all. I just keep holding onto any hope i can grasp that this too shall pass for all of us. Seriously, my ocd has attacked everything to convince me that this is the truth but somehow im still here and I hope one day I can come out of this with ocd no longer ruling my life and I hope the same for you and everyone that’s going through this.
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@Anonymous4868 My husband is the absolute love of my life. Which as im sure you can agree makes this all the more unbearable. Im rooting for you :).
@Anonymous4868 Currently in this headspace and it sucks.
@Anonymous4868 I also deal with Rocd so it’s unexplainable sometimes. They merge and it’s ugh.
Yeah I saw the same post and it knocked me for six too. Hope you’re all okay
Yes, saw it too. Didn’t react to it as much which bothers me.
Idk anymore it feels like being on here is a trigger. Every time I see a minor post on the app, my intrusive thoughts go haywire and then my brain says maybe you should comment something inappropriate and i literally don't wanna fucking do that. It's the last thing I want to do. And now im scared that I commented something crude on someone's post. obviously, when I went to check there was nothing now my brain is saying "you commented and then deleted". I want to think it's something I wouldn't do, but why are the images in my head so real. Children should be safe. I feel like I need to be locked away. Someone please help me.
I genuinely can't help but feel irredeemable over every little mistake made or regret I've had. It's so up and down, but I just miss the certainty. Knowing "this is who I am." I'm so disconnected from myself. Like, I'm really, really trying. Today is really rough... I got triggered the other night, and it's been hell since. I've been fighting seeking reassurance. I want it so, so incredibly bad, but I know it won't help me :( Some days, I just don't want to be here. It's funny because yesterday I felt amazing until I got triggered. I just immediately spiraled after that. I don't know. Does it genuinely get better? Will therapy really help me? Sometimes, I think maybe this is the best it'll get, and that scares me. Sorry for the vent. I'm just feeling so overwhelmingly anxious right now. I can't even cry (due to Zoloft). It feels claustrophobic somehow, having all these emotions trapped inside of my body with nowhere to go 😭
I know right now i shouldnt ask for reassurance... and that its unhealthy... but right now i am so triggered by the events on my previous post and I just need someone to respond so so basly...
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