Is it bad that my hocd started from porn?? Like I was scared I might like gay porn??? Is this normal

Answering this question will feed ocd. ‘Is it normal if’ is a compulsion because if someone tells you that it is normal- then you will feel relieved that your thoughts aren’t real and it’s just ocd. What you really need to work on is thinking “it’s not normal that my ocd started from gay porn”- and then NOT freaking out about it. It’s just another thought, another idea. You’re on a quest for a conclusion right now just like someone with POCD needs to know if they’re really a pedophile or someone with ROCD needs to know if they don’t actually love their partner. The point is NOT coming to an answer (it would be impossible). The point is handling the super realistic and/or scary thoughts with a pervasive indifference. This requires you to be brave, but will also free you from the chains of ocd. You can do it!!

@idont241 That is the sweetest thing ever, you just made my entire day? I promise I’m not though, I just love sharing the realizations I come to every day! We’re all struggling with the same things!!❤️

You are so sweet? I appreciate it so much. I love that we can help each other

I just can’t deal with the groinal responses they feel too real

This is the same as someone freaking out when they see their hand twitch on the steering wheel, after having a thought of driving themselves off the road. Their hand moved right? That means it’s specifically tied to the thought and that deep down they actually want to die! Right?? In ANY situation where you don’t want to have a groinal response, you are going to zero in and focus on it. Our nervous systems take that hyper awareness and focus and sends sensory impulses to that area-just by thinking of it! The more we think “no no no please no response”, the stronger they are going to start feeling to us. And even worse- attach an actual meaning to it. I mean we are so damn scared of it, it must mean something right?? You are literally TELLING your brain it means something by fabricating and labeling these things as evidence. You’re working as a secretary for your ocd. In actuality, real life, its just another meaningless physiological reaction.

How do you know this there’s no scientific evidence

“Scientific Evidence”= seeking certainty. Unless you stop doing that, ocd will have a hold on you forever. There’s no certainty. https://youtu.be/_08KZqk5Lnw Chrissie Hodges explains this well because she’s gone through it herself. Make sure you step back and evaluate what exactly you’re looking for and if it will strengthen or weaken your ocd. You have to decide when you’re going to be on the path towards recovery.