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- 3y
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- 3y
I liked being a girl and i liked girly stuff growing up. It was the outside world that made me feel insecure. Guys calling me a masc girl. My girl friends making fun of me because i couldn't wear makeup. Or my family acting uncomfortable with me when i wanted to be in soccer team and take lessons. People around me really triggered my ocd more than anyone.
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- 3y
Yeah!! I relate to that a lot actually. I started getting boobs when I was in 5th grade and they grew faster than I was ready for and my sisters wouldn’t stop bringing it up anytime I wore a swimsuit. It made me feel sexualized honestly and I remember thinking that I was supposed to like them and I didn’t understand why I didn’t. Still not sure what that means. But I see stories of trans people being like oh I thought I was just self conscious as a kid but turns out I’m trans.
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You tend to focus on the story of trans people being self conscious but with a clear vision you should see all sides. The trans people who felt self conscious the trans people that actually didn't have any problem with ther identity growing up. The cis people who felt self conscious as children and even have thoughts about being the other gender for a moment. There are many stories, many different experiences.
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- 24w
I just recently kind of was getting over my Constant spiral of “am I a lesbian or bi?”(im a lesbian) and now I’ve been tackled by “am I trans” even tho I’ve never questioned my gender ever, I love being a woman, and I never thought I’d ever be dealing with this since I’ve always been so sure of being a woman, anybody else?
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- OCD Conqueror
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- 23w
This obsession is new, but feels so much more grounded and it’s so anxiety inducing. Since the ocd started I’ve lost my sense of self and confidence. I got soocd and it slowly turned into be doubting my identity on whether I want to identify or dress masculine or feminine. I don’t feel good in the clothes I would typically wear out before I’m constantly overanalyzing how I’m feeling , it makes me really anxious and like I’m preforming. So then I started doubting if I would rather dress masculine and it’s extremely anxiety inducing and idk if it’s the ocd now but it feels like that’s how I want to dress.. that’s not what I associated with at all before the ocd but now it feels like that’s what would make me feel fully confident and loose in the world, does anyone else experience this??
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- 19w
I feel different from others, I don’t feel as feminine and I feel like I’ve changed. I’m not sure why I feel this way. I also don’t think my ocd is ocd, it’s just something I told myself to feel better. I know! What if I am what if I’m not, I get it, but I don’t feel like i have a choice in the matter anymore. I have soocd and it’s eaten me alive for years. I woke up out of my sleep and got triggered and here I am. I don’t know what I feel anymore. I always wanted a boyfriend and now It seemed to change. I don’t want a girlfriend, it’s just that I don’t see anything for myself and I feel like I’m hiding. It’s hard to explain. Plus sometimes the way I move or speak makes me feel more masculine and it kills me. Im feeling so lost and alone right now. I know what I want deep down but I feel incapable of having those things because I won’t be able to have feeling. If that makes sense.
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