Anyone else not feel girly enough? I can remember growing up feeling uncomfortable trying to look cute and wear makeup. It was like I didn’t want the attention. Like I was scared boys would make fun of me. Makes me wonder if I was self conscious or I didn’t like being a girl. I feel good about being a girl now but I still don’t love being girly, like trying too hard to look cute.

Sexual Orientation OCD

Caesarsalad

Date posted: 3y

I liked being a girl and i liked girly stuff growing up. It was the outside world that made me feel insecure. Guys calling me a masc girl. My girl friends making fun of me because i couldn't wear makeup. Or my family acting uncomfortable with me when i wanted to be in soccer team and take lessons. People around me really triggered my ocd more than anyone.

Cassandragoth

Date posted: 3y

Yeah!! I relate to that a lot actually. I started getting boobs when I was in 5th grade and they grew faster than I was ready for and my sisters wouldn’t stop bringing it up anytime I wore a swimsuit. It made me feel sexualized honestly and I remember thinking that I was supposed to like them and I didn’t understand why I didn’t. Still not sure what that means. But I see stories of trans people being like oh I thought I was just self conscious as a kid but turns out I’m trans.

Caesarsalad

Date posted: 3y

You tend to focus on the story of trans people being self conscious but with a clear vision you should see all sides. The trans people who felt self conscious the trans people that actually didn't have any problem with ther identity growing up. The cis people who felt self conscious as children and even have thoughts about being the other gender for a moment. There are many stories, many different experiences.

xoxoacid

Date posted: 23w

How do I get rid of these thoughts or calm down

I've been really overwhelmed with thoughts of detransitioning even though I don't want to like thinking I'm not a boy. It's been making my anxiety go up like crazy but I've never had this problem this much before, and I've always felt so proud of who I was and stuff but I don't know why this is coming up all of a sudden and I'm scared. I don't want to detransition but these thoughts won't go away. I often have feminine interests and have been trying to get into a better mindset and I feel like those things are making me feel more feminine and I don't want to feel that way.

ermhiiii

Date posted: 21w

I just recently kind of was getting over my Constant spiral of “am I a lesbian or bi?”(im a lesbian) and now I’ve been tackled by “am I trans” even tho I’ve never questioned my gender ever, I love being a woman, and I never thought I’d ever be dealing with this since I’ve always been so sure of being a woman, anybody else?

Anonymous

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 20w

Doubts about self expression

This obsession is new, but feels so much more grounded and it’s so anxiety inducing. Since the ocd started I’ve lost my sense of self and confidence. I got soocd and it slowly turned into be doubting my identity on whether I want to identify or dress masculine or feminine. I don’t feel good in the clothes I would typically wear out before I’m constantly overanalyzing how I’m feeling , it makes me really anxious and like I’m preforming. So then I started doubting if I would rather dress masculine and it’s extremely anxiety inducing and idk if it’s the ocd now but it feels like that’s how I want to dress.. that’s not what I associated with at all before the ocd but now it feels like that’s what would make me feel fully confident and loose in the world, does anyone else experience this??

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