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I agree with this, hocd started for me about ten months ago, I had almost every symptom under the sun, ten months on, my anxiety is a lot weaker, and I hardly have the symptoms? But I still have the self doubt! I believe it's because we get used to the anxiety so it weakens and the symptoms do also! It definitely feels real ?
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Are you scared to tell someone close to you because it will make it feel like your giving in? Like it will make it more real? It's so hard, I've been there, im still there, just in a different way! Just try and learn about it, and if you can try and speak to a professional. There's plenty of online courses, mood smith is meant to be good, also search Chrissie Hodges on YouTube, she explains a lot about hocd.
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That's exactly how I felt at your stage, I was scared of what people would think, which would make me believe I was in denial! And then I lost my attraction to the opposite sex, and questioned every time I would see someone of the same sex that was attractive! I never used to pay so much attention to the same sex, then suddenly you notice them all the time! Have you ever been walking down the street and you see a car and you go 'that's a nice car, I've never seen one of them before' and then after that moment, you keep on seeing that car? It's the same with hocd, because your giving it attention, your mind is only focused on seeing what your thinking about!
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Which is so common, you was comparing yourself with other members of the same sex, and then that horrible question pops in to your head and then from that point your constantly analysing whether your attracted to the same sex or not. For me I had a gay bloke hit on my while on holiday, I was with my girlfriend and friends, we was all drinking, I shrugged it off, but the next morning I was in constant panic, checking every male out, asking my self that same question, am I attracted to him?
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I’ve had this since this past January. Although my anxiety is gone, the thoughts still linger, and then I feel this weird odd sense and i don’t like it. My OCD always tells me “I’m gonna get you back” all the time. Like at times it’s not me talking. Or in first person. Before I used to wake up and think about how beautiful my girlfriend is, or what im going to do that day. NOW, OH HELL NO. Now I just feel like I’m lying every fucking minute
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I agree! I've had a few therapy sessions and it did help, but over time it's got easier, the anxiety and everything, some days I feel normal, the only thing is, I'm not fully back to my self, my naturally attraction to women hasn't come back fully, my sex drive is no where near where it used to be! That's what worry's me, and it all gets a little confusing! I keep relying on the thought that one day I'll wake up, and it will all be gone and I'll be able to move on with my life! Still waiting...
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How long have you had hocd for? Hocd does this to you, I used to constantly check! I've had similar intrusive thoughts like that as well, 8 months ago them thoughts would scare the hell out of me, now they don't, I've gotten used to the thoughts! When I first got hocd, I would be at work and notice every attractive male, constantly asking if I thought they was attractive, I was checking every second! My anxiety was ridiculous. You need to although the thoughts to be there, just say to yourself ' ahh here's that ridiculous thought again, I'm going to let it sit there, but not give it any meaning', and then try and move on from it! If your on any social media e.g Facebook, instagram, twitter, I recommend deleting it. Social media can be so negative. I deleted all of them almost three weeks ago, and I feel better with out them.
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If you can't get therapy, I recommend trying to learn about your condition, try and understand what it is your going through, try and stop looking on forums for answers. Once you stop giving in to your compulsions it will get a little easier. Also try talking to someone about it, someone you trust and can rely on, having someone in your corner can make the world of difference.
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Can sexual orientation ocd make you act on your fears and make you have same sex experiences ever and then after the experience realize that’s not what you are or want?
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For me it was a weird intrusive thought and after that I slowly started developing anxiety and I felt a weird thing like I was losing my attraction to girls. Then I woke up one day in complete panic cuz it felt like I had lost feelings for girls suddenly and I started searching online how to know if you’re gay if sexuality changes suddenly and I took some gay tests or sexuality tests online. Chat gpt was a big thing back then too. That was before therapy and before I knew what ocd is.Can anyone relate?
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trigger warning!!!!!! I’m really scared right now. I’ve been reading Elle Warren’s articles about her experience with HOCD/SO-OCD, and it feels so similar to mine. She went through the same fears of being a lesbian, felt distressed by her attraction to women, and spent hours ruminating, Googling, and analyzing her feelings. She even experienced groinal responses and revisited old memories, just like I do. Eventually, she had a moment of realization in college when she flirted with a girl, and everything clicked. She now identifies as a lesbian. I’m terrified that the same thing will happen to me. I thought the OCD fears were supposed to never be true and that HOCD thoughts are usually just compulsions that don’t end up being real. But reading her story, it’s like I’m seeing my own experience mirrored. What if it clicks for me, just like it did for her? What if I realize that I am a lesbian? Elle’s story makes me so scared. I thought my feelings of attraction to women were just OCD-driven, and now I’m questioning everything. I thought I was straight, but now, reading her journey, I’m wondering: could my OCD fears actually be real? Elle’s experience was very similar to mine: • She got distressed when she thought she might like women, not relieved. • She spent a lot of time ruminating, Googling, analyzing, and comparing. • Her attraction to women only became intense when her OCD flared up. • She said things like, “I feel peace when I believe I’m straight.” • She had already been diagnosed with OCD and had a history of this pattern. After years of fear and distress, Elle had a moment of calm and realized that it was true. I’m scared that this could happen to me too. Will I have a similar moment of acceptance, where everything clicks and I realize I’m gay? Or will I come to accept that this is all OCD, and that I’m straight, with the possibility that I’m not? I also keep thinking back to when my OCD lessened the first time. Did I go back to men because I wasn’t actually attracted to women, or was it just because the grip of the OCD had loosened? Elle also talked about the shame associated with non-heterosexuality. She mentioned that, like many of us, she had internalized stigma around being gay, and that it made her fear the possibility of being non-heterosexual. I can relate to this so much—growing up, I never saw it as an option to be anything other than straight, and now it’s hard to shake that fear and shame. Elle mentioned that she found reassurance in seeing other people with HOCD who worried that their fears would come true, but eventually realized they were just OCD thoughts. That idea is comforting, but also a little scary, because what if that moment of realization happens for me too? What if I finally accept that I am a lesbian? Or, what if I’m just struggling with OCD and eventually realize I’m straight? I just don’t know. The scariest part is that, just like Elle, I feel like I don’t have any obvious signs. She had no idea she was a lesbian until one day, everything clicked. She was 21, just like me when my OCD fears really flared up, and she had a breakthrough moment in Denver when she made friends with lesbians. That hasn’t happened for me yet, and it’s terrifying to think that it could happen in the future. I don’t know what’s going to happen, but I’m really scared about where this will lead.
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