Hello, anyone. I fear being schizophrenic. I read about 10 symptoms of schizophrenia that teens show: • seclusion I agree. I ended the friendship with my best friend, and lost interests. I became more depressed. • lack of emotions Agreed. I‘m a porn addict and used porn to shut off my emotions and obsessions. I feel now more emotions but I don’t feel many things. I‘m always on porn sites to get sleep. • lack of sleep Agreed. Since middle school I was always on my smartphone and looked Series in the deep nights. I‘m that stressed that I can’t calm down. • misunderstood hostility True. I had many bad experience with friends. Many were abusive and treated me bad. As well, i‘m an underachiever and experienced many bad experience with teachers. I think about all possible Szenarios. (I think what would I do, if I would die in 24 hours and other things). As well, I was diagnosed with Aspergers-syndrome and had problems understanding sarcasm or jokes. • lack of hygiene Not really. I’m very hygienic and suffer that my nails aren’t perfect. I have less motivation doing anything, but I’m hygienic. I was more unhygienic, when I was younger. • lack of relationships Agreed. I was never a friend of relationships, cause the relationship of my parents is terrible. I don’t want that a child suffers that way, cause my relationship sucks. I have always someone I’m friends but HOCD makes it worse being friends with male. • light and noise sensitivity I’m autistic and the psychologist told me, that it’s normal in aspergers. • self destructive behavior I have self-loathing issues and I’m always bored, so I do nearly everything to change it (adrenaline-addict). As well, I don’t really care about my health • Escapism I have aspergers and the psychologist told me, aspergers play roles and are in there mind. As well, I have adhd, so I never like being at the same place. • afraid of ppl Cause of the porn-addiction I became more scared of ppl, but always feared ppl. There was a time in school a boy bullied me and I began to fear him. I thought that he was everywhere (never really saw him). I became really paranoid, thought that he could follow me at home. Well, wasn’t a good time. Is that paranoid path of schizophrenia? Some more traits: • delusional and hallucinations No, seriously I don’t know. I love listening to music and try to hear behind the sound (background singers) and sometimes I take off my headphones, but I hear nothing. Or I believe someone is talking about my OCD themes and I try to hear, but there is nothing. Like a nurse that said: “I’m proud that I don’t hear noises”. I know that she liked me and we had our jokes. When I was 15 yo. my mother (that is possible schizophrenic and very religious) said me demons and ghosts exists. I always thought about was that possible a ghost that went through me, or thought I saw a shadow, or that someone is talking. At the time I was pretty gullible and have a huge fantasy. Same time I have an absolute hearing. Sometimes when I don’t read something clearly I see what I think and it happened as well that I thought that I saw the number, that wasn’t there. I‘m dyslexic/dyscalculic and I can’t see good without glasses. Never happened when I had glasses. I use pathological lying, cause without it I can’t lie. At the same time I used visual pictures to believe it myself and I worked too well. I became as well believing my imaginations and I don’t lie anymore with that strategy. When I was stoned I had some hallucinations, but just two days. Then it never happened again. I fear that I could made me schizophrenic. As well, I have a strong period with harm OCD and it’s horrible. I think about if I did things that never happened and about the possible consequences. I see everywhere the police and think if I would have problems. I’m not that kind of person. I feel guilty when I enter to starkbucks without paying a drink. Doesn’t that sound schizophrenic? I feel bad if a child cries or a dog doesn’t feel fine. I have some problems with empathy, but it became really strong (I don’t know why). I can’t empathize cognitive, but learned understanding nonverbal behavior, there I am a real genius. I love the daughter of my Cousine, she’s such a sweetheart, but I don’t know how to react correctly. Last time we painted :) I have cognitive helping syndrome. In my eyes they are just riddles, that are a challenge that I want to solve. The problem is the girls fall in love with me and I don’t like body contact (I must be a time, that I could feel comfortable). As well, I don’t want a relationship, cause I don’t want that she needs to suffer cause of my OCD and anxiety attack’s. Same time, I don’t experience love or deep for others. I‘m very paranoid. Like I said I think of everything. But, I don’t believe in aliens, ghosts, demons, illogical illusions. I have the brain of a scientist and philosopher, that makes it hard. I like acting eccentric and I was an amazing actor in middle school. The people always thought that I am the person I’m acting, that’s my talent. OCD drives me crazy and makes me really nervous. I bought the false ticket for the train station and just realized it, when the ticket controller came and asked about my ticked. That moment I felt as well, delusional and I really fear it! What is if I’ll pens forget my own name or just see others things that doesn’t exists. I went to several therapists cause of OCD and no one diagnosed me as delusional or schizophrenic, just anxiety related thoughts. But, someone that suspected that in me, cause I show the profile of ppl he works with.