Does anyone feel guilty really easily, like you’re being a bad friend if you’re not 1,000% honest with them all the time? Is this a specific type of OCD?
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I’ve wondered that. When I was young I used to obsess if I thought I broke some rule, that I deserved to be punished and I needed to confess immediatley
@ocdrllysucks No worries—yeah I can relate with that. Also, although I don’t deal with it as much now, I used to get super triggered by people saying things that I perceived to be slightly racist, bigoted, homophobic, etc, and then I would feel this OCD like urge to correct them and make sure they never say it again. Could that also be moral scrupulousity?
@ocdrllysucks Gotcha. Yeah the biggest problem for me is that I do genuinely want to get better at speaking up and being assertive, but also when my OCD acts up that makes it feel all the more urgent. Mixing genuine emotions with OCD feelings is just….the worst combo ever.
Yes. I feel like if I’m not honest with them then that means I’m trying to manipulate them or take advantage of them. I read your other comments on this thread and I completely relate especially with rule breaking as a child.
Yup it’s tough. Such a strange phenomenon, because of course when I was young I used to obsess about being morally “right” all the time, but then when I became a teenager I stopped caring about that quite a bit. Now that I’m an adult living at home again, it seems to be my biggest obsession. Not sure why that is, I guess I just need to keep exposing myself to triggers to some degree.
Yes! Exactly that’s it! It’s like yes, speaking up for yourself is a useful skill that a lot of us can be better at, BUT when you have OCD that can easily turn into this endless game of wanting to speak up against EVERYTHING even slightly wrong. At least that’s how I feel
@ocdrllysucks So for example, literally about a half hour ago, I walked by my living room and my dad asked my sister to change the channel because there was a sitcom playing with a primarily black cast. It made me think “wow, my dad is so racist, he can’t stand watching this show with black people because he’s so racist. If I don’t speak up or shun him for it, then I’m a weak human being and he’s basically the devil.” While I feel okay overall, those thoughts definitely spin around in my head. Such an annoying trigger for sure.
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