- Date posted
- 3y
Social Media is Killing Me
I waited three days to post about this because I don’t want to be reassurance seeking and also I know it might sound unimportant to be so worried about this, but it’s now day 3 of nonstop ruminating and I really need to talk. One of my biggest fears/triggers is social media. I was always anxious about what my partner was up to on Instagram but it got so much worse after we broke up. I found myself becoming completely obsessed with his social media, even going through all of his followers and having huge anxiety attacks from it. It’s awful. I’ve calmed down a lot but the other day, I noticed he wasn’t coming up on search. At first, I panicked because I thought he blocked me. But then I realized I had to type in his full username and then he popped up. I checked on all of my accounts and it’s the same: he’s suddenly been hidden from search. And it’s only him. This is causing a huge anxiety spiral for me. The only explanation I can find online is that Instagram sometimes hides people from search who violate community guidelines. He hasn’t posted anything in months and hardly even goes on Instagram anymore, so this is just further re-enforcing my fear of him being creepy or inappropriate on the app. Maybe he’s messaging things to people and is getting reported? Maybe Instagram knows something he’s doing so their suddenly hiding his account? I know it shouldn’t matter and I shouldn’t care or shouldn’t have even noticed but I did and I’m so freaked out about it. Thanks for reading all that. Hope you’re all doing well