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That sounds really tough, but know that you’re not alone. I suffer from ROCD myself and I’ve found ERP really helpful. The challenge you might face with your approach is that you’re trying to use logic to disprove your intrusive thoughts. To truly make them less powerful and have less anxiety from them, you have to accept them. Maybe when your boyfriend leaves and you have an intrusive thought, you can respond saying: “Maybe I am only physically interested in him! Who knows… time will tell!” and then move on. Once you surrender to the thought, you’ll actually notice it come up less. And btw, I know it’s much easier said than done. But you got this! Cheering for you.

I understand what you’re going through ! And especially when you said you were fine when together but when he left the anxiety creeped back in … that hit home ! I literally get such bad anxiety when I spend time with my boyfriend and he’s about to leave! Because I know I feel safe when he’s there but all the intrusive thoughts come back when he goes and I feel awful cause I always make a scene when he goes even though he needs to work or he’s busy :( And yes the right thing to do is definetly to work on the thoughts and continue powering on but I know from experience some days unfortunately are so difficult that it’s almost impossible to be as productive and if I’m feeling particularly bad I try and take it easy and do things I know cause me the least anxiety like being with my dog.