I’m been ruminating and it gives me headaches. I’m now fully convinced I’m a lesbian and all my attraction to men aren’t real. Now I only get of to wlw contents. I know I’m not a lesbian, however what if I am and lying? I have liked boys for most of my life and never had a crush on a girl. I can’t even find a girl pretty. I have never had a crush on a girl. It’s too much. The idea of dating a woman makes so uncomfortable, like I don’t like it all because I know it’s not for me.

Yes and me debut like women or im gay and lie myself I cnow like girl but now nothing sexually and anixty not it's here bat have episode anixty how today crye much and leater start again now me ask like girl or not and I cnow yes and in mind it's are in denial

@mateus12 I know how you feel. It's ocd!! Try to calm your brain down. Things will get better and you will feel good again

@Littleducky5 Hi you seem to have good advice could you help me too if possible…I have been weird about these thoughts the entire day its like they are always at the back of my mind but i am not anxious nor doing anything about them not searching on the internet and finding every single compulsion of mine fake and like just doing it for the sake of it . The thoughts have ranged to feel way too normal and real which also doesn’t scare me anymore which also doesn’t scare me so idk what to do now.. its like i have been noticing the same sex a little more and then also having had past experiences with the same sex os making me think things that I don’t want to but could be true also i was watching a movie and noticing the girl and not feeling weird about it and this girl who recently said was bi was asked how she knows about this and she said that she noticed a girl and i am doing the same what if this is the start of an experience of coming out or something and like i have heard people who do actually are anxious in the beginning and that is what’s happening to me as well how do i not know that this is a possibility which it is and mine is ocd and not denial cause it feels like the latter.. also the dream i had today was also so similar to this that this is how you start feeling and why have i been feeling this could be a possibility so strongly is it because i have been noticing women or girls who are bi and not accepting and not feeling anything close to being anxious but continue looking?!? What do i do?

@Brave through I think I just responded on your other post! I would say its hocd and you're definitely not in denial. But I know that's not going to help anything lol. Ocd is so hard

@Brave through Sometimes I would feel like an out-of-body experience/panic attack that was so intense and felt like it was actually me coming out of the closet and needing to accept it.

@Brave through Tbh I think it’s because we think about the Same sex SO MUCH that the feelings feel real but it’s just your anxiety and your ocd working together to trick your mind into thinking it’s real but it’s not. Ocd craves fear and when u feel it, it feeds even more the more attention you bring to your thoughts. Some people are so convinced that they are gay but there is no such thing as 100% certainty. Try to be mindful and take it day by day. Do not think about the future and do not think about the negative aspects of what you’re feeling. Accept uncertainty because it gives your mind a little bit of a break instead of searching for an answer right away. It will get easier with time. Just keep on living

@Itswhatever I totally agree. Thank you! I had recovered from this for over a year and I'm so mad it came back!

@Itswhatever Thankyou for this!! Its so hard to not focus cause it feels so real as i keep noticing not feeling anxious nothing can calm my mind down its so hard.. its so hard to not let it effect you or be in this habit of compulsions if they even are.. but i will try

@Littleducky5 I know it feels way way to real sometimes and the past feels fake like every guy I might have ever liked feels like it never happened cause this feels so real