Tonight i am having compulsions of saying something crazy in an email about a crime I did not commit. Emails make me afraid I do not know why I am accusing myself or trusting myself I am envisioning my self in a jail cell and in handcuffs i am so terrified why cant i make my fear go away i didn’t do anything at all so why are these thoughts making me suffer its turmoil please help me
its really scary I have a similar thing going on right now. try to distract yourself and do something that makes you happy and eventually you'll be able to accept the uncertainty
Thank you so much, it is frustrating not trusting who i am as a person, i know I want to stay safe always i am always double double triple triple checking, i remember as i lay here currently in my room on my bed i sat on my bed and sent a email a second time to be more sure of the first one i sent, is that normal with OCD? I sent two emails and i only was worried about the first one because i cannot see the sent inboxes in the email portals, but the next day they replied and i didnt know, but my aunt told me to wait 5-7 days i only waited 3 i was so anxious to check if they replied, i got what i wanted !! The first email replied sent back the body of my email it was perfect!! But my mind shifted to this current obsession because they never replied to my second email…when I was not worried about it for about maybe 3 days! THIS IS ALL OVER A JURY DUTY NOTICE, i hate court houses and courts it scares me, i am afraid of courts its a fear like i am also afraid of spiders My obsession switched the exact moment i looked at my first email, i rejoiced for a quick moment then the ocd kicked in again saying “they didnt reply to second email but if i did something wrong” its so scary, what if i did something wrong please help me i need advice. I know myself I even took photographic and video evidence and sent the second email to my boyfriend via text, i still have the photos and videos on my phone of my second email, i even looked through every history tab on my laptop only to find my first email when i was paranoid about the first email i was not even worried about the second one. Idk can u please help me and tell me if i am crazy or not?
I dont think you're crazy, but I do think you're feeding into compulsions that just make the ocd cycle worse. what's the worst case scenario? you sent an email that could potentially be interpreted as rude or disrespectful. okay. People send these emails all the time. from what you've written here, it's very unlikely to me that you did that because you would have worried about it before now.
Thank you!!! My compulsion is confessing to a crime i did not even commit! Like stealing stuff or something or doing something very wrong when I did not, i live in terror about going to jail for no reason when its people who may actually deserve jail time , but i am innocent, a past event in college triggered me to get in trouble for being disrespectful to a teacher and being accused of wanting to fight her when i did not, and i was given a school judicial court case i sat in a room when i was 18 at a judical trial at my college having to please guilty or not guilty all about this situation i felt innocent in while they recorded me on a tape recordeder and i had to read my statement about how i did not want to fight the teacher and i am innocent i was found guilty for being disrepectful and “charged “ with 120 hours community service in the cafeteria when hindreds of people could see me wiping tables i was so ambareased and dropped out of that college
Now i am at a new better college i have a better life i worked so hard for this life i cannot mess up again i am afraid
I'm so sorry that happened to you. that's disgusting what they did and I can understood how triggering it can be for someone with harm ocd. I think you're missing something though. You didn't mess up last time, you were falsely accused and that college should be the ones feeling guilty, not you.
by what you've posted, you seem like a very good person and you don't deserve to be worried about this
i’m so scared im going to lose control and end up locked up or something. this is so exhausting!! i worry that what i have isn’t OCD and that im genuinely insane and im gonna end up in big trouble or that the urges i have are going to actually happen. i dont want to think these things ! i feel like a horrible human being!!
Usually my compulsions are always motivated by fear. I feel like a child when I have compulsions. Like for example, my brain convinces me that someone is in my house and I need to open every cabinet and all the shower curtains, and do tons of other crazy things like march instead of walking so that if someone where to shoot at my legs they'd have less of a chance of hitting me. How do I stop it? I am just going about my day and I can see in my head, myself getting attacked or something and so my only option to calm myself down is to do a bunch of random actions that will keep me "safe". Does anyone else experience this? Or convince themselves that they are under Milo Murphys law? That anything bad that can happen to them will, so they need to never do anything that could result in anything bad, and avoid everything? And how do you convince yourself you're not in danger?
Less than a year ago, I had a very big anxiety flare up to the point that I felt as though I needed to report to the police / harm myself. I ended up leaving an anonymous tip at the police hotline about something that I know I didn’t even do but everything told me I had to or else I will go to jail. And similarly after that I called the help line and explained I had unwanted intrusive thoughts and I didn’t think I deserved to live for having those thoughts. After these many months and working with my therapist, I’ve been able to feel a lot less anxious around this topic and now I’m getting lots of anxiety about what I did that time when I was so anxious. I gave in to my compulsions and confessed for stuff that I know sounds bad saying out loud but only certain people will understand I would never do. So now I’m just looking for someone to relate and perhaps let me know that I don’t have anything to worry about? I know it’s bad to seek reassurance but I’m not sure where to go. And I’m worried I’m going to keep incriminating myself.
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